I have been reading books and birth stories and every thread I can, and I still feel like I'm the only one who doesn't know what's going on. Everyone seems so knowledgeable and casual and I feel so overwhelmed. I've got loads of what if's - what if I can't handle it? What if I can't tell when it's the real thing? What if we can't make it to the hospital? What if something happens to the baby or to DH? What if I do something wrong? What if... gravity reverses and I have to give birth on the ceiling? J/K on the last one, but I think you get the idea. I know that billions of women have done this before me and made it through but I can't help but freak out a little. I have just about eight weeks left and I feel like I'm running out of time to figure this all out. It doesn't help that "every birth is different" like people say all the time, I wish there was something I could count on.
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1/3/07 at 6:01pm