OK.. first of all, we (dp and I) went to a BIG County Chamber event, business meeting, dinner, the works. I had three preggo comments while there...
One was "when are you due? oh June... huh... so you still have a ways to go!"
another was just like that and the third was
"JUNE?!?!?!? Are you sure it's not twins?????" I said yes thank you, only one!
In other news
I'm so upset and frustrated with DP. We have lots of ongoing relationship problems.... he tends to be a very selfish and work driven person. He seems to be at work all the time and has little regard for me. He only seems to do think with DD (ie, put her to bed which is the only thing he's really home for) If I ASK him to and even then he only really gets her jammys on and reads her a story and I have to go finish.
Yesterday I had gone around lloking for something really nice to wear to that dinner. It was at a very highend place and tickets were running $80 a person. Now you all know how hard is to find something that fits and looks nice. He had made some extra money this past paycheck and told me to go get something nice and not to worry about the price tag. Now I know this is terrible but I found a REALLY pretty dress and bought it... it was $70!!!!! and a special occasion wear so it was non-returnable... but it wasn't a maternity dress, but fit nicely like one and so I figured I could wear it again. I ran around looking for the right shoes and accesories and when I showed up to his work to pick him up that evening you know what he said? (I was ALLLLLL dressed in my new tea-length dress with hair done etc.)
He looked at me like I had come in wearing jeans and sweatshirt and said "I thought you were going to wear that pants suit" I said, no I told you bought a new dress. He then proceeded to tell me that the dress didn't fit me well and that why dont we run home so I can get my out fit with the pants. I didn't know what to do. He went to take a shower at the gym (where he works, I had brought his clothing there) and sent me home to change. I SOBBED the whole way home!
Why is he so insensitive???? If you dont like what some one is wearing, it's fine to tell them in the store before they buy it but not then... not at that moment! He complains about my lack of confidence and can't for the life of him figure out why I'm like that!!!!
This is the "man" who called off our wedding because of my weight!
I'm sorry to carry on... the main problem is that I do love him so much and when he's nice to me it seems to all be worth it but it seems like so many times things are just... like last night. we ended up having it "out" in the car on the way home... I had put on a happy face all through the party even though he kept going to the bar and not bringing me back anything to drink (they had free champagen in the center but alot of good that does a pregnant woman). I went to the bathroom and he left to go get himself some food and I couldn't find him for a while.
Guys, he's so CRAP to me and there's nothing I can do about it! Why can't he just love me and treat with some thought, consideration and respect?!?!?!?
I'm sorry to go on and on... I just dont know what to do... we "talk" all the time, I explain how I feel... I just seem to be constantly getting this whole speach from him to the effect of ,
"Some days I really really love you and I want to have a happy little family with you and just be with you and other days... I dont know... it just doesn't seem to work." He tells me we fight all the time and he always hears about everything he's doing wrong.