We are having too go ahead with the section, so I have too be at the hospital by 7am too be prepped. I got my labs over the weekend, and liver enzymes were climbing ( just by a few point from last blood draw ), and i was spilling more protien in my urine when I went for my NST over the weekend.. Baby seems too be doing very well though. My body just stops doing well at a certain point. This happened last time.. I hit 37wks, and I just fell apart.. I am supposed too be in bed , until tomorrow, but ... have alot too do..
I know this sounds crazy, but I really think carrying boys is just something that hormonally doesn't fit with me.. Yeah I know I am older, but Inever had issues like this with my girls.. I had perfect pregnancies, unless you count depression with maddy.. but nothing serious like pressure issues or spilling protein, or liver issues.. But with my boys.. I just fall apart..
I know C-section talk is very taboo here, but could really use the support.. I am scared too DEATH, and will be a f'n prisoner for 4 days in the hospital....I think this bothers me the most.. Looking at the same four walls all day long, and not being able too go anywhere, or do anything.. Chris and I really think this is best for both baby and I, but I still am dealing with alot of anxiety over this. I have been crying non stop since we talked about this..
I just pray and hope that I do not have a repaet of last time. I want things too go smoothly.
We are supposed too go meet with the Anethestiologist (sp?) tonight , when Chris gets off of work.
I'm scared... too say the least.
I know this sounds crazy, but I really think carrying boys is just something that hormonally doesn't fit with me.. Yeah I know I am older, but Inever had issues like this with my girls.. I had perfect pregnancies, unless you count depression with maddy.. but nothing serious like pressure issues or spilling protein, or liver issues.. But with my boys.. I just fall apart..
I know C-section talk is very taboo here, but could really use the support.. I am scared too DEATH, and will be a f'n prisoner for 4 days in the hospital....I think this bothers me the most.. Looking at the same four walls all day long, and not being able too go anywhere, or do anything.. Chris and I really think this is best for both baby and I, but I still am dealing with alot of anxiety over this. I have been crying non stop since we talked about this..
I just pray and hope that I do not have a repaet of last time. I want things too go smoothly.
We are supposed too go meet with the Anethestiologist (sp?) tonight , when Chris gets off of work.
I'm scared... too say the least.
missy! i hope everything goes smoothly. i hope we can support you through this -- it's not like you're having a c-section to see a game or something! your health is on the line and it's important that you get the care you need. i'm so sorry that you won't get the birth you want this time.
) for similar reasons. I wonder if it's a boy I have in here as well? In any case, hold fast to the vision of your new little babe you will have soon and remember, we're all here behind you 
right now. I'm in the same boat as you, I have a scheduled belly birth next Tuesday. I had so much anxiety as well. At least planned is much different than emergency. You might want to ask your Dr. if you can have a moment of silence first with your birth team (surgeon, anaestesiologist, DH , nurses, etc.) to create sacred space. Also, can you bring some soothing music. This is your birth Missy...it can still be beautiful even though it is not what you had originally hoped for. All the mamas here will be praying for you, and just think, at this time tomorrow you'll be holding your new little love. Don't forget to breathe....I'll be thinking of you. 
