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post #141 of 728
Ok I'm calmed down

Tara I'm sorry about your bfn but I'll keep my fingers crossed for you until af shows. Stay positive and keep doing what you've been doing.

Fruitful Welcome!

lily the blood test is for progesterone and prolactin. I have that and a day three one scheduled, if I don't O before Friday when I go in I'm going to make an appointment to see him and just tell him I'm not waiting 71 days again until I see day three.

Susykat I hope your hsg goes well!

Ity I hope you're hanging in there. I really hope this month the clomid makes something happen for you so you don't need to go through any more testing.

Jilly for the +opk, you're probably right about the one I took last night being too diluted, maybe that's my problem because I do drink a lot of water. Maybe I'll just stick to waiting for my temps to go up, I feel like every time I get a - I'm psyching my body OUT of Oing if that's possible.

Crystal how's that spotting coming?

Theresa we miss you!

Elk Looking good! Do you ever have spotting mid cycle like that?

Christy the month I conceived I felt cramps the whole two weeks until I tested. I hope so much that this is it for you.

Crystal I want to say a special thank you for the extra you've put in as threadkeeper this month (already! it's only the 5th, what other surprises do you have for us?: ). I think sometimes I get so wrapped up in the whole ttc thing and thinking about my m/c that I forget what I'm doing this all for and hearing the updates kind of puts it in perspective I guess. I have to remind myself that there's life going on around me now and there'll be life going on later and this is one part of it and yes it's HUGE but it's not the only thing. I feel like I'm racing against the clock right now, trying to get there before my would have been due date, my next birthday, and I have to remind myself that I can't force this, it'll happen when it happens and IT WILL happen.

Now on the other hand, these negative OPKs are doing my head in
Love to you all
post #142 of 728
Thread Starter 
spotting.. not much different than yesterday.. just more red... not enough yet for cd 1... but it cant be far off

I'm loving threadkeeper... I got to move a whole bunch of people today ... they were old news that just never got updated.. but still.. I did it
post #143 of 728
omfg - I am so angry right now there are just not words to fully express it. That whole deal with the lovely state law that mandates that insurance covers infertility treatments? We're an exemption to that. Something about self-insuring places not having to follow that law. I'm so pissed off right now I can't even speak outloud.

I'm not having kids. We can't afford to do it on our own, we can't afford adoption, and th e"old-fashioned way" ain't working.

I guess I've got to come to terms with that somehow, cause I now am officially out of options. : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : :
post #144 of 728
Thread Starter 
giant hugs barbara

I'm sure something will happen for you...
post #145 of 728
Oh Barbara, I wish there was something I could say.
post #146 of 728
Oh Barbara... I hope something miraculous comes your way.
post #147 of 728
Barbara I'm so so sorry, that just plain sucks. Is there some other department you can call with in the insurance company? Insurances don't cover it at all here I mean as a state law. Mine is military insurance and it only covers meds......no type of insemination weather it be intrauterine or artificial. Bleh, I'm sorry, if I could come over and give you a big hug right now I would.

Tara don't stop imagining your October baby girl.......that witch isn't here just yet..........she might not show up.

Christy You are correct, I would totally try to pressure you into testing.......I've got to live vicariously thru you guys since I'm not getting a bfp......ya know? I guess I can wait til Sat tho...hehe

Christy I had cramps every month during pregnancy at the same time that would have been AF if I was not pregnant. So the answer is YES cramps are totally normal.

Sarah I hope you O soon girl friend!

Jilly Hope you caught it!!!

Lily I totally understand, I'm on CD7 and just kinda here. It's way too early for O and I'm not anxiously awaiting the 2ww....ya know?

Valerie So not selfish on your part........I have a relative that I don't think needs more children and she just keeps spittin' em out. Hugs!!!

Graduates Hi to you all and thanks for stopping by and showing us all how determination pays off!!! YAY! for you!

Well, DS has to have his tonsillis and adnoids removed on the 20th and DD has to have her tubes removed and replaced since she has lost 35% of her hearing from the clogged up sh!t. On the 20th everyone will be soooo grumpy here, but we won't have Scarlet fever and strep anymore!!! WAHOOOOO!! I'm just hanging out here waiting to O in like 11 or 12 days. DH will be home for the 5 days leading up to O and the day of......We will catch that egg........I'm banking on it this time. Remember my # 11 around what I was told would be a boy? 11th month TTC or born in month 11 which happen to conincide with NOW and 9 months from now.................I will get pregnant, I will get pregnant and i will hold our baby I will hold our baby!!!!
post #148 of 728
barbara: something HAS to come up. I'm keepin the faith for you.
post #149 of 728
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Barbara I'm so so sorry, that just plain sucks. Is there some other department you can call with in the insurance company? Insurances don't cover it at all here I mean as a state law. Mine is military insurance and it only covers meds......no type of insemination weather it be intrauterine or artificial. Bleh, I'm sorry, if I could come over and give you a big hug right now I would.
Nope - we're not covered. So basically, I'm completely and officially out of options. This sucks more than anything has ever sucked for me. There just aren't words. Basically my entire hope for having a kid hinges on this damn month and this last dose of Clomid. I don't know what I'll do if it doesn't work.
post #150 of 728
Fruitful - Sorry I forgot you earlier. Welcome!

Christy - Here's hoping those cramps mean something GOOD. I'll have my fingers crossed and watch eagerly on Saturday!

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Elk Looking good! Do you ever have spotting mid cycle like that?
I've been wracking my brain to remember... It isn't much at all, so I didn't mark it as officially spotting and that means I probably wouldn't have in other months. So maybe this is different???

Ditto SJ on Thanks to Crystal for the thread-keeping work!

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Originally Posted by ItyBty View Post
omfg - I am so angry right now there are just not words to fully express it. That whole deal with the lovely state law that mandates that insurance covers infertility treatments? We're an exemption to that. Something about self-insuring places not having to follow that law. I'm so pissed off right now I can't even speak outloud.
I am so, so, sorry Barbara. This news just sucks and you are right to be pissed... I will be thinking of you this week, hoping for good news this cycle and hoping some new options appear.
post #151 of 728
Ity - I just PMd you.

Okay, I just made a crazy carnelian bracelet covered in carnelian, if anyone wants to see.

http://img65.imageshack.us/img65/525...ianlgy7.th.jpg
post #152 of 728
Ity - I'm sorry you're so discouraged. The whole health insurance thing is so completely up. I know how frustrating it can be. I feel for you right now.
post #153 of 728
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Ity - I just PMd you.

Okay, I just made a crazy carnelian bracelet covered in carnelian, if anyone wants to see.

http://img65.imageshack.us/img65/525...ianlgy7.th.jpg

Ity, I am sorry that post seemed insensitive. I did PM you about it. But I wanted to give you a also. I don't have fertility coverage either, but I have been doing small things as I can afford them. Doctors sometimes work with you and put the stuff under different reasons so it will be covered. Don't give up yet, there may be options for you.
post #154 of 728
Yes, if you find the right doc, they'll fudge it a little. My last appt they called it "abnormal spotting" or something rather than infertility. We also struggle with the infertility coverage. : There is a child out there waiting for you. Don't give up on it. You wouldn't when it is here in your arms, and I'm sure you won't now. From my stalking you don't seem like the type to give up easily. FIGHT!

I knew a couple that had ZERO coverage, had tried for 8 years, and that woman fought like a mad dog and finally got like 25% coverage for IVF, and has twins now! Miracles do happen.
post #155 of 728
Thanks guys... it means a lot to knwo that you all care as much as you do.

If the Clomid doesn't work this month, I think we'll be taking some time off from TTC. It's been 18 months now with absolutely no sign of anything. No chemical, no miscarriage, no abnormal test results... No reason to carry on or to stop really, other than money. We can't afford RE's or IVF or adoption or anything, so this is basically my last month actively TTC.

Lily - I've already asked my current OB about coding things so they'd be covered. She won't do it, and looked horrified that I'd even ask. I'm really at the end of my rope, sanity and patience wise anyway, so maybe a break will help. I just feel so.. broken righ tnow. Broken spirit, broken dreams, broken body... I haven't been able to stop crying since DH got home from work and told me the insurance news. I just honestly don't know what to do. I'm out of hope, I'm out of prayers, and I'm just plain out of everything right now. :
post #156 of 728
Ity -

As you can see I woke up at like 3:30am and felt so depressed I tossed and turned and finally came here. My friend who got preg after 2+ years trying is having trouble quitting drinking and smoking pot now that she is preg. I'm so frustrated and angry with her and with God really. I think she is a "friend" that has such different beliefs than I do that all she does is anger me mostly. Then I think of how few friends I have that I can relate too and that adds to my "I'm not preg again" depression. Fact is.....this sucks. No other way about it, but I absolutely have to find a way to get past that and live my life. I feel like I have completely lost my life to ttc. Like everything brings me back to it.

I did really enjoy the posts from the graduates. I'll go back and read them now for a pick me up.

T
post #157 of 728
I wish I had some sunshine and good news to spread this morning but the fact is I'm feeling pretty crappy myself. I tossed and turned all night after crying myself to sleep and it looks like I'm heading for another anovulatory cycle. I have bloodwork on Friday but my obgyn only takes appointments on Tuesdays so I'll have to wait a couple of weeks to see him. I just don't know what to do anymore to keep positive about this.

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I absolutely have to find a way to get past that and live my life. I feel like I have completely lost my life to ttc. Like everything brings me back to it.
This pretty much sums it up for me. It consumes my every thought.
post #158 of 728
Thread Starter 


sorry everyone is so blue...


cd 1
post #159 of 728
Crystal-

Hooray!:
post #160 of 728
to everyone here......I'm sorry that everyone is feeling so low.......and Barbara I'm thinking of you now. Time heals all wounds.........I know from experience and losing a child is something I've had to learn to live with..........it has gotten easier to pass the days but we will never forget. We're going to her grave on March 17th (her funeral was the 18th, birthday was March 11th) just to let her know we remember everything that happened to her and remember her of course. Please don't think I'm being insensitive, you guys mean the world to me.............I just have to stay positive about my life and how it's not that bad. I love my family, my job, and my life even the way it is. I will check in from time to time, but I need to take a break from the boards for a while............just until we get thru all the *stuff* going on irl................DS and DD having surgery on the 20th.........tonsillis and adnoids removed for DS and tubes replaced for DD............lot's of things. I'll miss you guys and you can still PM me if you want to chat.

Love ~Teneal
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