TTC 6+ Months February Support Thread - Page 10

[lilyflower]

Originally Posted by jen&james

I did clomid last month and ended up with a cyst.

Hi! How did you know you were developing a cyst? I feel like I possibly am too and just wondering your symptoms, etc., if you don't mind.

Originally Posted by SarahJen

lily I received my bracelet and it's absolutely beautiful! :

Thanks!!! I am glad you like it!

[ItyBty]

Originally Posted by angel1895

giant hugs barbara

I'm sure something will happen for you...

Originally Posted by SarahJen

Oh Barbara, I wish there was something I could say.

Originally Posted by ChristyM26

Oh Barbara... I hope something miraculous comes your way.

Originally Posted by Tenk

Barbara I'm so so sorry, that just plain sucks. Is there some other department you can call with in the insurance company? Insurances don't cover it at all here I mean as a state law. Mine is military insurance and it only covers meds......no type of insemination weather it be intrauterine or artificial. Bleh, I'm sorry, if I could come over and give you a big hug right now I would.

Well, DS has to have his tonsillis and adnoids removed on the 20th and DD has to have her tubes removed and replaced since she has lost 35% of her hearing from the clogged up sh!t. On the 20th everyone will be soooo grumpy here, but we won't have Scarlet fever and strep anymore!!! WAHOOOOO!! I'm just hanging out here waiting to O in like 11 or 12 days. DH will be home for the 5 days leading up to O and the day of......We will catch that egg........I'm banking on it this time. Remember my # 11 around what I was told would be a boy? 11th month TTC or born in month 11 which happen to conincide with NOW and 9 months from now.................I will get pregnant, I will get pregnant and i will hold our baby I will hold our baby!!!!

Originally Posted by jillybeans

barbara: something HAS to come up. I'm keepin the faith for you.

Originally Posted by Hezzy

Ity - I'm sorry you're so discouraged. The whole health insurance thing is so completely up. I know how frustrating it can be. I feel for you right now.

Originally Posted by lilyflower

Ity, I am sorry that post seemed insensitive. I did PM you about it. But I wanted to give you a also. I don't have fertility coverage either, but I have been doing small things as I can afford them. Doctors sometimes work with you and put the stuff under different reasons so it will be covered. Don't give up yet, there may be options for you.

Originally Posted by jillybeans

Yes, if you find the right doc, they'll fudge it a little. My last appt they called it "abnormal spotting" or something rather than infertility. We also struggle with the infertility coverage. : There is a child out there waiting for you. Don't give up on it. You wouldn't when it is here in your arms, and I'm sure you won't now. From my stalking you don't seem like the type to give up easily. FIGHT!

I knew a couple that had ZERO coverage, had tried for 8 years, and that woman fought like a mad dog and finally got like 25% coverage for IVF, and has twins now! Miracles do happen.

Originally Posted by angel1895

sorry everyone is so blue...


cd 1

Originally Posted by Tenk

to everyone here......I'm sorry that everyone is feeling so low.......and Barbara I'm thinking of you now. Time heals all wounds.........I know from experience and losing a child is something I've had to learn to live with..........it has gotten easier to pass the days but we will never forget. We're going to her grave on March 17th (her funeral was the 18th, birthday was March 11th) just to let her know we remember everything that happened to her and remember her of course. Please don't think I'm being insensitive, you guys mean the world to me.............I just have to stay positive about my life and how it's not that bad. I love my family, my job, and my life even the way it is. I will check in from time to time, but I need to take a break from the boards for a while............just until we get thru all the *stuff* going on irl................DS and DD having surgery on the 20th.........tonsillis and adnoids removed for DS and tubes replaced for DD............lot's of things. I'll miss you guys and you can still PM me if you want to chat.

Love ~Teneal

Originally Posted by susykat

Ity I am so sorry about the insurance thing. I wish that there were something that I could do. I heard someone else say to keep pestering the insurance company and I would do that. Maybe try writing a letter a week. I don't know what else to say - I am so sorry.

I'm really getting excited for my HSG!! (Painful as it may be) Last night my DH and I were talking and I said lets talk about our intentions for this month. I said that we are open to having a boy or girl enter our lives, then we talked about names. Seeing how I 'm a Colts fan and they won the Superbowl I said Ok now don't say anything right away just think about it, what do you think about Payton for a boy? He erupted into laughter so fast that spit went all over my face. After we settled I told him that I do really like that name for a girl, he agreed. So I asked what his intentions were and he said for his baby-making stuff to go into my baby-making stuff and make a baby. I kid you not he said that word for word!! I had to laugh. We then decided to try to be patient (haha) and be okay if our baby isn't ready this month. (insert meditating peaceful smiley here) Now we have good intentions but lets see how that plays out!

I forgot to temp last night!!! Oops!

Originally Posted by allisonrose

Tenk

angel It's rare to be happy about AF but I'm so glad she finally showed up for you. :: O vibes your way ::

Ity It's really not fair the way infertility is covered. I really hope a
solution comes through for you.

Tara A couple pages back you responded to what my acupuncturist said. Yes it was exciting to hear but I also don't want to get my hopes up too much because as ready as my body might be to get pregnant, I do need the assistance of my hubby's swimmers.

I'm 6 DPO and feeling optimistic. Too early to lean either way.

Originally Posted by ELKMama

Hi everyone - Seems like (another) big is needed!!!

Ity - I'll say it again: this s*&ks! I'm sorry and I hope some new options appear soon. And maybe a break is just the thing you need right now... I am amazed by your perseverence and patience so far.

Ok - first off - you guys ROCK. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, but you guys are seriuosly awesome. So last night after I posted DH and I just didn't talk much and we both just sorta tuned the world out and did some thinking. I spent today thinking too, and what I've come up with is that since I'm on Clomid this month, we're gonna try to maximize it with IUI, and I'm gonna also talk to my OB about coding stuff as PCOS or something, although I highly doubt she will, anf I'm gonna call around and see if I can find out how much IUI will cost us. It's bound to be cheaper than IVF, which I'm not even certain we need. The more I think of it, the more I think I need a new Dr. I love that this one s nearby, and they have midwives that I can see most of the time, but I'm just not thrilled with the costs or the lack of help they've given us so far.:

So I'm still not in a happy place, but I have no reason to be truely depressed until this month goes bust, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure this month works.

Originally Posted by jen&james

Hi I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm Jen (30 yrs old) I have a 20mo old son (5/24/05) It took us 15 mo to conceive him and I have been trying to get Pg again since he turned 1. He is still nursing down for nap and down for night but all my hormone levels are normal. I did clomid last month and ended up with a cyst. I have alot of anxiety about going thru this again since our infertility was unexplained last time. i just wanted to say Hi and that I might post here and follow everyone if it doesn't add to my anxiety. Hi Jilly

Welcome aboard Jen - I hope your stay is short and sweet.

[jillybeans]

Originally Posted by jen&james

Hi Jilly

I'm SO glad you came over! I've been missing you like crazy!

Originally Posted by allisonrose

In case anyone's interested, my preggo teammate is out on maternity leave as of last Friday. She went in to get induced yesterday because her blood sugar levels from the GTT was a bit above average. So they considered her as having GD. Her OB told her if she went to term - the end of next week - that she'd have an 8 pound baby. My boss called her on her cell today. She's in the hospital but the medication isn't causing her to dialate. The doctor was going to come in to check her and possibly tell her it was time for a C section.

i'm glad the s/a was normal! And on the other thing...i have(had) a friend who did the same thing. They ended up inducing her and she had a whopping 7lb 13oz boy. And she's having a repeat c/sec next week for # 2 *sigh*


Itybity: I had a doc near me that was cheaper and closer too, and he's the one that told me there was no way i was pg last month, when in fact I was. i'm SO glad i changed docs, even though the new one is twice as far and twice as expensive. It's worth every single penny. I think you'll agree if you change docs.

My cp dropped! Yay. now the dreaded 2ww! I picked up some tests tonight.

[jen&james]

Hi Lilyflower- I found out about the cyst because my Dr was doing ultrasounds to monitor my follicles I was very sore and it hurt really bad when I ovulated. If you think you have a cys let your Dr know so he can check, they may have you take a month off clomid because it could be dangerous if you continue the clomid ans hyperstimulate your ovaries. Good luck.

Jill- I think I am going to hang around but I don't think I am going to O this month. It is cd13 and I still have low on my monitor but we will wait and see. I guess I could still end up surprised. I hope your 2ww is short, keep busy

[jillybeans]

sounds good jen. Crossing my fingers for you. And ya, i'll TRY to stay busy, but we both know it's not that easy.

[SarahJen]

Good morning

Ity I'm so glad you've decided to try something new!

Christy : since you have no temps to stalk you're going to have to keep us updated on every little symptom so we have something to obsess over.

jilly your timing looks good

Called my dr yesterday and I have an appointment for the 20th. This all seems a bit futile until then, I feel like we're not really TTC since doing so is impossible without a working body on my end. I had a complete meltdown about it with DH last night, I feel like such a failure, I feel like I let him down, let my family down, and I feel so completely out of control of the whole thing. He asked me a bunch of questions about what our options are and he said again that we'll do whatever it takes, no matter the cost and I love him for that. I just feel like it all takes so LONG and I don't have the patience to keep on with the 'wait and see' every month. Anyway sorry to ramble, I'm just so frustrated with myself over it all.

[ChristyM26]

Barbara - I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. I do think it might be worth it for you to try and find another doctor though, especially where the one you're seeing may not be able/willing to completely help out. FWIW, so far I haven't had to ask my doctor to do anything wierd with coding. Sadly my insurance won't pay for my clomid until my dh has a s/a. But my doctor and I don't think that's a reasonable step right now, since I'm not ovulating - why look for one problem before you've solved another?

But that's not going to be an issue for 9 months, right? (Please, please, please...)

Sarah - I'm warm again this am, so my temp is still up. Actually, I felt really warm this morning, so maybe it's up a little higher. And there was more digestive fun last night. I'm still thinking positive - I feel like good things are happening.

[Taradactyl3]

Ity - More 's.

Sarahjen - This is not your fault. You only have marginal control over all of this stuff. You have done everything you can and then some. Please don't blame yourself. I know it's dissappointing and frustrating and all of that but it is no ones fault. Just crazy mother nature taking time to get back to normal.

Me - Still no AF. I felt her coming all day yesterday and nothing. Today is CD 30 and I've only had one cycle over 29 days in the past 9 months. I feel like AF is going to come any sec. I keep going to the potty and checking for some spot or something. I need to know before my acupuncture on Thursday so I might have to test tomorrow AM again even though I have little hope for a +. Tonight I am supposed to go out with some girlfriends for sushi and I was going to have one beer but if AF isn't here I'm not that comfortable with sushi and a beer, kwim? Even if there is only a slim chance I am preg I can't take a risk (meanwhile my girlfriend sees no prob with smoking pot a couple times in the 9 months she's preg, ugh!).

Off to get started for the day with yoga class.

Tara

[txbikegrrl]

Still lurking, hoping to see some BFPS soon...

Ity -- Hopefully your new outlook will help with TTC or at least reduce your stress. I agree with PPs who encouraged you to find a new MD. It can't hurt to at least consult with someone else.

[angel1895]

hi ladies...
I'm just gonna send some hugs around.. I've been a bit busy and everytime I come to this thread I get distracted...
...

I'll be back later after my brain straightens itself out

[jillybeans]

sarah, i agree with tara, it isn't your fault! You didn't ask to be put in this situation, and you're doing more than the average woman would to get out of it. Have faith in yourself.


tara: Sushi and beer sounds glorious. How long has it been since i've had that? I honestly can't remember. I've either been ttc or nursing since sept of 04 Let us know what happens.

I'm in the 2ww now.

[ItyBty]

Originally Posted by jillybeans

Itybity: I had a doc near me that was cheaper and closer too, and he's the one that told me there was no way i was pg last month, when in fact I was. i'm SO glad i changed docs, even though the new one is twice as far and twice as expensive. It's worth every single penny. I think you'll agree if you change docs.

I am thinking I'll go see a new OB. I'm just not feelin' this current one, she just seems so rushed with me.

Originally Posted by SarahJen

Called my dr yesterday and I have an appointment for the 20th. This all seems a bit futile until then, I feel like we're not really TTC since doing so is impossible without a working body on my end. I had a complete meltdown about it with DH last night, I feel like such a failure, I feel like I let him down, let my family down, and I feel so completely out of control of the whole thing. He asked me a bunch of questions about what our options are and he said again that we'll do whatever it takes, no matter the cost and I love him for that. I just feel like it all takes so LONG and I don't have the patience to keep on with the 'wait and see' every month. Anyway sorry to ramble, I'm just so frustrated with myself over it all.

Sarah - I know how hard it is sometimes, but the sad fact is we dont have much control over things when TTC - and that makes thing really unbelievably frustrating. Just be glad that your DH is there for you to lean on on those bad days, and just think ahead to when you will have you r sweet baby in your arms. Some days all that gets me through is my daydream about names I like, what the nursery will look like, a quilt to make for a boy or a girl... It reminds me of what we're working on, and why we're making ourselves nutso over this.

Originally Posted by ChristyM26

But that's not going to be an issue for 9 months, right? (Please, please, please...)

:

Originally Posted by Taradactyl3

Still no AF. I felt her coming all day yesterday and nothing. Today is CD 30 and I've only had one cycle over 29 days in the past 9 months. I feel like AF is going to come any sec. I keep going to the potty and checking for some spot or something. I need to know before my acupuncture on Thursday so I might have to test tomorrow AM again even though I have little hope for a +. Tonight I am supposed to go out with some girlfriends for sushi and I was going to have one beer but if AF isn't here I'm not that comfortable with sushi and a beer, kwim? Even if there is only a slim chance I am preg I can't take a risk (meanwhile my girlfriend sees no prob with smoking pot a couple times in the 9 months she's preg, ugh!).

Tara - I'd at least go ahead and enjoy the sushi - My understandingis taht until implantation occurs, the baby isn't getting anything from what you eat or drink yet, so you should be alright. I'd probably even have one beer, and just nurse it throughout dinner alongside a glass of water.

Nothing to report here... just waitin'

[jillybeans]

ity, i'm so glad you're going to change docs! It's amazing. sometimes that simple act can make miracles happen! I have a good friend who was seeing the same doc i was seeing before. She has major i/f problems and the doc basically told her that she was fine(wtf? She doesn't even get af!) and missed the fact WHILE DOING AN ULTRASOUND that she had MAJOR cysts. She switched to the doc i have now, and he said if they would have gotten any worse she could have been seriously in trouble. He got her back on track, fixed her problems, and she's finally O'ing for the first time in four years! So sometimes a new doc is great.

[ELKMama]

Howdy, howdy. Good to hear that there is a bit more cheer today, even though the frustration and blues continue (of course!) too.

Originally Posted by SarahJen

I feel like we're not really TTC since doing so is impossible without a working body on my end. I had a complete meltdown about it with DH last night, I feel like such a failure, I feel like I let him down, let my family down, and I feel so completely out of control of the whole thing.

I know others already said it, but please be gentle with yourself. I'm sorry your body isn't working, but YOU are not a failure in any way and you're not letting anyone down. You're doing your very best to figure it all out, plan for the active ttc, and stay sane in the meantime.

Originally Posted by ChristyM26

Sarah - I'm warm again this am, so my temp is still up. Actually, I felt really warm this morning, so maybe it's up a little higher. And there was more digestive fun last night. I'm still thinking positive - I feel like good things are happening.

Yeah! Glad you're feeling good and hopeful. Keep up updated.

Originally Posted by Taradactyl3

Me - Still no AF. I felt her coming all day yesterday and nothing. Today is CD 30 and I've only had one cycle over 29 days in the past 9 months. I feel like AF is going to come any sec. I keep going to the potty and checking for some spot or something. I need to know before my acupuncture on Thursday so I might have to test tomorrow AM again even though I have little hope for a +. Tonight I am supposed to go out with some girlfriends for sushi and I was going to have one beer but if AF isn't here I'm not that comfortable with sushi and a beer, kwim? Even if there is only a slim chance I am preg I can't take a risk (meanwhile my girlfriend sees no prob with smoking pot a couple times in the 9 months she's preg, ugh!).

Off to get started for the day with yoga class.
Tara

Tara - Very exciting... I guess I misinterpreted your earlier post so sorry for the af condolences when she isn't even here. But that is great news. And enjoy the get-together with the girls, no matter what you choose to do. Yoga class sounds like a LOVELY way to start the day.

No news here... Just twiddling my thumbs and waiting...

[ItyBty]

I just called and made an appt for an RE. Supposedly he is one of the best in this state, and he's not that far away either. The initial consultation, if insurance refuses it, is $600 though, so I'm hoping that Insurance will pay at least a little bit. I plan to harass them into payng some of it. BUT, the appt is not until March 29th. : So in the meanwhile, I have a tentative IUI appt at my old OB's office. I just have to call the night I get the +OPK and come in the next day to get sperminated.

Finally! Things are moooooooooving... (albiet slowly as heck)

[ELKMama]

Wow! Great progress on 2 fronts. Good for you for taking charge, Barbara.

I'd love to hear about the IUI. Has anyone else here done it? It is my fantasy solution - I keep thinking that will work, if nothing else does soon. That's all based on one friend who had 2 cycles of clomid with nothing and then a cycle with clomid and IUI and her baby boy was born last Saturday!!!

[lilyflower]

I'm not sure I understand the necessity for IUI. Can anyone explain? Why IUI, what are the benefits? It seems inseminating would only get it just a bit further than it would get on its own? Is that true? I just don't quite get the reasons it.

[ItyBty]

Originally Posted by lilyflower

I'm not sure I understand the necessity for IUI. Can anyone explain? Why IUI, what are the benefits? It seems inseminating would only get it just a bit further than it would get on its own? Is that true? I just don't quite get the reasons it.

My thinking is that I think (straight up intuition here) that with me not making EWCM, that the sperm can't find my egg. I sort of picture like, fish in a stream, if the stream doesnt go to the egg, they can't swim to it, and I tend to be on the dry side, even with EPO and flax and green tea and all that. SO I'm thinking that by bypassing that, and just putting the swimmers directly into the pool, maybe it'll have a better result for us. Of course, it's gonna cost us $500-$600 so those swimmers had damn well better swim like hell and find the egg, cause this is turning uot to be one expensive baby, and s/hem isn't even hear yet.

Originally Posted by ELKMama

Wow! Great progress on 2 fronts. Good for you for taking charge, Barbara.

I'd love to hear about the IUI. Has anyone else here done it? It is my fantasy solution - I keep thinking that will work, if nothing else does soon. That's all based on one friend who had 2 cycles of clomid with nothing and then a cycle with clomid and IUI and her baby boy was born last Saturday!!!

ELKmama - that is exactly my thing - this is my 3rd cycle, and the last 2 didn't work, so I'm hoping I get the same results as your friend. : :

[Tenk]

Barbara May I suggest that you try Preseed as well? It is supposed to mimic EWCM and you insert it right into you vajayjay. One package of it is like $18.00 and it comes with 6 applicators of it. I bought it for this cycle as well. that way your inseming and doing it the old fashioned way while using preseed. Your going to double your chances that way.

Hi everyone!

[jen&james]

fert. monitor

Anyone here use a fertility monitor. I am on Cd 14 and it is still saying low. I used it last cycle while on clomid and got 5 days of high before peak but I figure that was the clomid. I am just hoping it will give me a peak and I will O. I looked on FF and some charts showed the monitor go from L to P without ever getting H. : I just want to O is that too much to ask?

I have to get my sleepy head up so to everyone