I'm here (with squirmy babe on lap).
~Nikki~ - for SAD, I also recommend cod liver oil (one with the naturally occuring vitamins A & D - Twinlabs makes a very good and inexpensive one) and cutting sugar. SAD signifies your body's need for those vitamins, so supplementing them, especially in the winter through cod liver oil (which will also give you a big omega 3 boost), will definitely help.
I started my LoA journal yesterday. I bought a 9" x 12" sketch pad at the art store. On the first page I wrote out some of the lyrics to "Unwritten" and sketched in color a window with amazing sunlight streaming through. One thing I've been doing each time I visualize what I want in terms of our house is to imagine it bathed in warm, golden, sunlight. One the back of that page, I started a gratitude list until ds#3 woke from his nap. Well, yesterday evening I was driving with the boys out to Costco to meet up with dh, and the sun was starting to set. It had been raining off and on for two days, and the clouds were finally breaking up, allowing the sun to shine. OMG the colors were amazing, and you know what ... *everything* was basking in the most amazing golden glow! It was beautiful (I couldn't stop going on about it to the boys). The sky was still dark in the east, the trees looked especially green, and there was this warm, amazing golden glow to everything as we drove. I was like, "The Universe is SOOOO cool! Thank you!" It gives me shivers thinking about it now.
In some ways, I almost see it as confirmation of staying here ... kind of like, the Universe was reassuring me that I have that warmth here; I just need to tap into it and acknowledge it rather than missing the forest for the trees, yk? Anyways ... thought I'd share.
Oh, and I'm totally excited because I have a 30 minute reading with Charmarty (Charmaine) tomorrow night ... and I went and scheduled the consult with our homeschool curriculum creator for next Tuesday (and my mom is watching the boys for me while I do it as it's an hour phone call). I feel like I'm getting some clarity and coming up out of the funk I had been in for so long.
Oh, and one last thing, as I'm buzzing higher just typing all this out. When we moved in to our house almost 2 years ago (our oldest was not quite 4), I told dh I really wanted some type of backyard set for the kids (at that time there were two boys; now we have three). We didn't want a plastic one like the Little Tykes, but felt the really nice Rainbow ones were too expensive. Well, I've been unknowingly attracting this playset for the better part of the last two years, and now it's being delivered and built *TOMORROW*!!! We splurged (called it a hs'ing investment) as it was a lot of money, but we used our home equity to pay for it, and I know how we will have it payed off in the next 12 months! I'm so dang excited! (I'm even allowing the boys to watch a bunch of TV today knowing tomorrow they'll be outside playing all day!) YAY LoA!!!