I have been reading some of the LOA books, and following most of the threads here for some time, but I only watched The Secret for the first time tonight ... and I have been buzzing for hours!! It was like being hit in the head with a big "DUH!!!!" moment.
That part of the movie where one of the teachers tells you to really look at the backs of your hands, study them, and then close your eyes and imagine yourself driving your dream car ... WHOA! That was so powerful for me!!!! I was RIGHT. THERE. And I didn't see my dream car, I didn't even really see a specific car, but I was driving. I was feeling all the power and freedom and absolute JOY of driving that car. The rush of the wind, and the speed and the amazing sense of freedom just swamped me. I was there. And that car was me! My life! I had power and freedom and joy driving my own life! I can still close my eyes and FEEL it!!!!
Okay, sorry for the caps and the exclamation points, but it's like something opened up inside me. Something that makes so much sense and just poured into me.
I've often felt like there were times in my life during which I was in a state of limbo. Tough times, times where I didn't have any direction but I felt all this change and upheaval. They came in cycles, almost exactly every five years. And I knew they were times of learning for me, but it was like I'd get stuck in that limbo land and be so bogged down by those feelings of uncertainty, by fear, by despair and hopelessness, and it would take me SOOOOO LONG to figure out just enough of what I was supposed to be learning to climb out of the limbo and go on until the next limbo.
Well, I've been in that limbo land again for the past year or so. BUT, I feel so open now. So open to learning what it is that I finally need to learn! To taking power and knowledge from that and building the life I want! I see possibilities and opportunities before me. I feel joy. JOY!!! I feel so light. So absolutely on my way. Like I'm finally ready to stop waiting to live the life I want, to have the life I want, and to do it already.
Does any of that rambling make sense to anyone else?
I am in the most amazing mental and emtional state right now, somewhere I've never been. And I KNOW I can continue to be there. I know that I am amazing, that I have the power to create my perfect life, that I have the power to create all of the freedom I want. Isn't that incredible!?!