Originally Posted by sphinxie
If you're still here... one question you could ask is "How do I want to feel about this?" and then focus on the feeling that you prefer to have. Just by focusing on that feeling, often you will end up feeling that instead. Then from that feeling you prefer, you can say whatever comes naturally, and it will be something you'll prefer.
Today, after the throes of PMS are over, I am much clearer on this. I don't understand how it is possible for me to be completely nuts for 2 days and then be appalled at my own behavior afterwards. I never know when it's going to hit, anywhere from 20 to 40 or so days apart. I'm terrified by this, I think it's part of what was wrong with my mom, and I know how damaging this can be for kids to be around.
I don't know what to do, I'm so tired of going to doctors and having them either downplay the awfulness or tell me I'm depressed. If i was depressed I wouldn't have all the good days in between. I watched 'The Secret' today, and I intend to try positive thinking, but there are always those 2 crazy days that leave me feeling guilty.
My poor dd, 2 crazy moms. It's a wonder she can function at all.
We go to see the counselor together on monday, me, dd and dh. Afterwards they are supposed to be scheduling me an appointment by myself. There has to be something that can be done.