We're doing scarily well. Ella is 18 days today and my big kids still fight over who gets to hold her.

I am particularly pleased and surprised by my DS, who I figured wouldn't really care about the baby much being such a big guy at 6, but he is totally in love. So sweet. DD really wants to be able to play with the baby, and is frustrated that she doesnt really respond yet. A few more weeks will solve that, though.

I feel great. Much better than I did pregnant. I feel like me again, and I had forgotten what that was like. I am much more cheerful and capable of dealing with life. Not to mention mobile. I also find that I get to enjoy each baby much more, because I am so much more relaxed (and know how fast it goes, so I make sure I enjoy the brief time they are so tiny!).
It did take me awhile to recover from our hospital stay, though (we spent 2 days getting a full sepsis workup because Ella had a fever at 5 days... that turned out to be the virus we all had around her birth). I hold her a lot more tightly and had to spend some time grieving the loss of our peaceful babymoon and that lovely smell she had before. I'm also a lot more paranoid of germs than I was, because I do not want to go through that again (though the ped reassures me they wouldnt send us back to hospital). Unfortunately with 2 older kiddos and DH back at work now, life has to go on and with it exposure to nasties. I did buy Purell and a bathroom cleaner with bleach for the first time in my life though, if only to get us through this first 6 weeks.
But otherwise, its all lovely. I feel very in love with my family and so happy that we decided to do this, although I felt very conflicted during the pregnancy. She fits in and completes our family and its so nice to have shut that door and just be able to enjoy what we've got. DH and I are connecting again now that I've stopped being a crazy pregnant bitch lol and that is great too; we are enjoying the fact that my belly isn't in the way any more, too.

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