Induction blues...not making it to March

[mommietime]

I am so sad mamas...

I will be going in for induction on the 20th. I have Cholestasis. It increases the risk of stillbirth, and there is little to be done about it besides get Nicoleta out of there.
The other aspect of this problem is itching....sort of comparable to the chicken pox if you get them old enough to remember...a bit more severe (and no week vacation from school). So even though I am sad about the interventions, the itching is so bad that it will be a relief to stop it.
I just feel so gyped that I don't get to have anything even close to the birth I want. I know that having a healthy baby is the most important, but I really feel blue.

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[MotheringHeart]

I know that not having the birth you want is really hard. I've been down that road before. I hope that all goes well. You are in my thoughts.

[risen_joy]

I'm so sorry mama!! We'll be rooting for you!! Just think - you'll get to meet your sweet little one all the sooner! I hope it ends up still being wonderful for you!

[Samjm]

I completely understand how you feel. I'm going in for an induction on Monday 19th, due to Pre-Eclampsia.

I will once again no be having the birth I dream of, but I didn't with DD either, and I got over it eventually. I know I will this time too.

Good Luck!!

[karen1968]

Originally Posted by Samjm

I completely understand how you feel. I'm going in for an induction on Monday 19th, due to Pre-Eclampsia.

: Except I don't have an exact date yet - we are playing it appointment by appointment at the moment. I think I'll be induced the week of the 19th, though, even if things are the same as they are now. I'll be 38 weeks by then, and the midwives and OBs are worried things could turn bad at the drop of a hat.

I'm sad not to be able to go into labor spontaneously, not to be able to labor at home for any time at all. But a lot of my other birth wishes are still possible, according to my midwives (I'd already planned a hospital birth, so that part isn't a surprise or change).

to all of you who are facing this. It's so hard to lose all you've dreamed of. But my priorities have changed...I used to say "The last thing I want is a c-section." but now I realize that, really, the last thing I want is to not have a healthy baby! I try to keep that in mind every time I get "bad news."

[kittycat9]

I'm so sorry. I too won't be having the birth I wish for - not even close. I have to get a c-section again (had a vertical emergency last time), and due to other complications, it's being done on the 22nd. The baby will only be 37w3d, which has me a little on edge, especially since I'm having a section.

On the upside, at least you have a little time to mentally and emotionally prepare. I think it will really make a difference for you in the long run vs. having to have an emergency induction or section. Some things we just cannot control, but holding your healthy baby in your arms will make it much better, I'm sure

[MsElle07]

[Llyra]

I have cholestasis too. I'm scheduled for c-section this Friday at 37 weeks, and it's the saddest thing for me. I'm not a candidate for induction because I'd be VBACing and this means that since I don't plan on having more kids, I have lost completely my opportunity to ever birth a baby the normal way. It's a terrible loss, I think. So I'm right there with you, and I know just what you mean about feeling gypped. I keep hoping I'll start labor before then, so at least I'll get a little of THAT, but so far it hasn't happened and I only have four more days.

The one upside is I look forward to STOPPING the godawful itch, don't you? It is kind of nice to see a definite date when it will end, because it's terrible to live with. People keep saying, "it's just an itch, what's the big deal, it's not like you're in pain" but they have no idea how BADLY a person can itch, and how much constant itching can wear down your nerves; I've been living with this for almost 9 weeks. So I'll be glad to see the end of that, won't you?

[ILoveMySofie]

ooops double post!

[ILoveMySofie]

Originally Posted by karen1968

to all of you who are facing this. It's so hard to lose all you've dreamed of. But my priorities have changed...I used to say "The last thing I want is a c-section." but now I realize that, really, the last thing I want is to not have a healthy baby! I try to keep that in mind every time I get "bad news."

I couldnt have said it better. Hugs to all of you who are going through the inductions-you are brave mamas and I know that may not be the experience you have envisioned for yourselves.
But- you do get to meet your wonderful beautiful babies and take them home. THAT is the most important and priceless.

[Mummytwice]

[mommietime]

Thank you mamas....and it is comforting to hear other March mamas in the same February boat!

[mommietime]

Llyra,

You have been in my thoughts and prayers.

NOBODY who has not experienced this can possibly understand how difficult it is for us....the inability to escape it just for a minute, the lack of sleep, the skin scratched so raw it stings and bleeds but still itches....maddening.
And of course the knowledge that at any time this "just an itch" might kill our babies. At night I sometimes think I may not make it to week 37.

So, yes, I also see my induction as a light at the end of a tunnel....but it's the train.

[Heather423]

http://www.rainiersoapworks.com/ makes a special soap for PUPPS, which is another pregnancy related rash/itching problem. I read in a birth journal on another site that this soap eased her itching and made her feel so much better after trying everything! Maybe this will help??

[doublesnap]

mommietime and llyra,

You're both in my thoughts...I went into PTL with Nic, his due date was 3/1 and he was born 1/27 by c-section. It definitely wasn't the birth I had envisioned, especially after a complicated pg, but the joy at seeing my baby boy and now having him home makes me push back the negative thoughts about birth.

I hope your births go well and that you both soon get to hold your little ones soon. Good luck.

[Llyra]

Originally Posted by Heather423

http://www.rainiersoapworks.com/ makes a special soap for PUPPS, which is another pregnancy related rash/itching problem. I read in a birth journal on another site that this soap eased her itching and made her feel so much better after trying everything! Maybe this will help??

It's a really good idea, and thank you, but I've been through every soothing itch remedy know to humankind, and nothing works for me. They work to soothe the irritation caused by scratching, which is a blessing, but the only thing that helps the actual ICP itching is cold-- ice or cold baths-- because they reduce blood flow to the skin.

It's the bile salts or whatever that build up in the blood that cause the itch, rather than skin irritation, so it's really really hard to find anything that helps.

[karen1968]

Well, everything was fine again at the midwife today (NST/AFI, BP, blood work, and cervical check). But we went ahead and scheduled my induction for next Thursday (2/22) (check into hospital on Wednesday night). I'll be 38w2d at that point, and babe should be healthy as can be...and hopefully I won't have any additional issues before then!

[mommietime]

Well,
not only did I not make it to March, I didn't make it to Tuesday...

but I am very pleased to announce that we survived the Cholestasis, and as of 2:51 on 2/15/07, I am the proud new mommy to Nicoleta

She is doing very well so far, and I am not complaining about my stitches too often!

It went really great, and you mamas are in my thoughts now, hoping as great for you!

[tika]

Congratulations!!!

[grneyes328]

Congratulations!! I'm not from your ddc, but I have Cholestasis too and I'm facing a 37 week induction myself, so it's wonderful to hear a good story.