I'm sort of late chiming in here (was searching for cholestasis threads), but I wanted to let you know, I know exactly how you feel.
Kaiden was born at 38w3d, I was admitted to the hospital at 38w1d. When I found out I had cholestasis, I was devastated. I had dreamed of a water birth, going into labor on my own, and being able to labor for a while at home. I was so upset that it wasn't able to happen, and felt guilty for being upset as well.
Once a date was scheduled for my induction, it was such a relief knowing there was an end in sight. Nobody can understand what it's like itching yourself until your skin is raw and you're bleeding. I'd take ice cold showers, and sleep with ice packs in bed, even that didn't totally help.
I look back now, and I'm so happy things turned out ok. I was even able to go into labor without pitocin, and was able to deliver in the tub. I'm terrified of it happening again when we are ready for child #2, but I know that at least this time around, I'll be able to be prepared and know what to expect.