I'm back on the TTC boards...although it'll be a few months before I can see us being emotionally and physically ready to TTC again.
I'm afraid I need to vent. We lost our baby yesterday.
We went in for our 12 week OB appt and we were hoping to "hear" the baby's heartbeat. When she couldn't find it, she u/s (both abd and vag) me and there was no heartbeat. We couldn't believe it. We had a nice strong heartbeat at 7 weeks. I look and feel pregnant. This was totally shocking to us. The baby measured at about 10 1/2 weeks, so it must have happened fairly recently. I did have some dark brown spotting over the weekend, (read post) and didn't think too much of it.
We will be having a "full" workup on ourselves and the fetus since this is our second m/c. I don't know what to think.
I had a D and C yesterday and it went as good as a D and C can go. I'm not able to sleep tonight (it's 3:00 in the morning!!) maybe due to the drugs. I did loose alot of blood.
This is "worse" than the first time since we thought we were getting out of the "danger period". How can I trust my body again??
It's not fair. I know that on a spiritual level there are no mistakes and that things happen for a reason. It's sure hard to "digest" that right now. I am completely devastated. How could this happen again?????
Have any of you been through this and have had children? Any good grief books- that are more on a "spiritual level?"
Thanks for listening to me and letting me vent.