nope. and welcome. posts like yours are why i still even bother to talk about it all here. love to you, sister-adoptee.
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6/15/07 at 12:37am
The strangest thing for me, which I've never spoken of, is this feeling that I'm reliving 'the moment' I was taken from my bmother. It is like that moment is somehow remembered by a part of me and lives down inside of me. It is triggered occasionally by things like watching a movie or reading this thread. Is that completely bizarre?
And welcome Candice! It’s interesting that you have all the info about your bio dad but are hesitant to contact him. I was sort of the same way with my birth mom. I knew (or, my mom really knew, I actually had it wrong) her maiden name, and some old addresses, things like that, things that I could probably have used to find her, but I was afraid to try to contact her. Who knows if I ever would have or not, because then the decision was basically taken out of my hands. But I’m so, so glad it was, because that was what brought us together. Is there a specific reason you can pinpoint for not wanting to contact him? Or is it just a general feeling? Maybe if you can isolate what the reason is, you can work it through and figure out how to proceed with either trying to find him or deciding it’s not something you want to do.
As for me, my birth mom arrives tomorrow. I’m so excited! Now I have to get the guest room ready for her and clean the house. We just moved and I’m excited to have her see our new place. I’m also leaving my Christmas decorations up for her. I can’t wait!!