Pagan/Wiccan grief info and support on violence?

[airmide_m]

I used to be Pagan/Wiccan (though not extremely well-read) but gradually I've become more Agnostic, which I'm not exactly happy with. Today I realized that a lot of the reason I moved towards Agnosticism could be related to unresolved grief over abuse and loss.

The wheel/spiral is easy for me to understand when it comes to natural or even violent accidental death or loss, but what about when the death or loss is intentional (not the individuals choice) out of malice or neglect?

I guess it's pretty cliché for people to go through a phase of being angry with God. I never really did go through anger, just altogether stopped believing. And that isn't emotionally satisfying or conducive to me realizing my full potential, so I'm hoping maybe mamas here will have some insight and help me find a path towards being happier again.

[thismama]

The Pagan Book of Living and Dying by Starhawk is an excellent resource IMO. Dunno how much it would help for working thru grief tho, sorry I just reread your post better.

[airmide_m]

Thanks! And I'm impressed with how quick your reply was too!

I'll see if I can find it. I do have Spiral Dance though it's been a while since I read it. I was hoping there might even be a forum I somehow hadn't found or something...I didn't come up with much on google.

Maybe part of my problem is that I used to be a lot more receptive to that sort of stuff and now I need things presented in a much more dry logical way and then I can ease into the more "woowoo" (is that the word? lol) type stuff.

I'm wondering now if this was the correct forum or if I should have posted to Spirituality, I wasn't sure.