use the thread, because I had a moment of clarity this morning, a renewal, if you will. So for me, the new month has already started. It just feels
I can't even really explain it. I've been in a dark place, this past year especially. Life was just so....crummy, really. It's been improving in recent months, and since discovering The Secret. But with the good has come some necessary bad (like my husband having to be away for work - a neccesity if we are to recover from our financial burdens). So, despite life improving in some ways, I've still been walking around with a shroud of darkness around me. People have noticed. My boss has pointed it out. Co-workers and family members have pointed it out. I've just felt so weak, and doubtful, and not confident at all in my decisions.
But this morning on my way to work, I walked through the park the same way I do every day. And then I just stopped. I don't know what stopped me but my heart just suddenly filled with so much hope
.... I stopped and looked up, closed my eyes, and absorbed the sunshine beaming down on my face. And it felt so damn GOOD. It was like that dark shroud was just washing away, and suddenly my path in life was clear. I CAN do what I dream. I really CAN. I practically DANCED the rest of the way to work, haha. And in fact, I did blare the music and dance around my office this morning (nobody is here for another half hour, so no risk of embarassing myself!)
When I finally settled down and sat down at the computer, my daily horoscope popped up. This particular website is always bang on when it comes to what will happen during the day. It's eery, really. And today's horoscope was:
|Making the right choices in life can be hard to do, so you have every right to feel proud -- even joyful -- about the decisions you've been making lately. You have examined some difficult situations and chosen the right path. You are a strong person -- stronger even than you know. Have confidence that although you haven't completely put recent hard times behind you, you soon will.
It's the first time - ever - that something as silly as a horoscope has brought a tear to my eye.
And with that, it's time for my morning cup of tea. Happy March, everybody....even if it isn't really March yet. The sun is shining and the grass is green.