Hi Ladies- I haven't been on much lately, my mother and sis were here visiting so we were busy, busy! I don't get to see my sis much because she lives in England so I was good to see her! I was the first time she had seen Kaitlyn!
Today was an awful day and I just have to vent to someone! First, I had to take my sis to the airport and traffic was AWFUL- and my stupid blinker on our piece of schist car decided that it wanted to quit working so I am freaking out at the super busy airport because I can't get where I want to without my blinker and I am scared I am going to get hit. Then I was so sad because I miss my mom and sis and wish we could be closer to them. I hate it here in AZ and it just makes it that much worse that I am so far from my family.
Then- I am at *gasp* WalFart
: and I am watching this young girl in the Mcdonalds area. She has a baby about 8 months old and this poor baby is in its car seat faced the opposite direction of her and this girl is just chatting away and eating crap while her baby is just making sad faces and whimpering.This goes on for about 5 minutes, THEN she gets up and gives her baby a drink of her soda and goes on ignoring her. I think my expression was something like this
FTR- I am waaaayyyy to overly emotional/empathetic. I feel physically sick and overwhelmingly sad about things that probably don't really bother others. Seriously- I can't watch the news or read the paper or watch American Idol- or anything where I think people are going to be hurt. Pathetic as it sounds-some commercials even make me feel bad. I HATE being like this- I hate not being able to read the paper or watch the news because I will cry like a baby for hours about it. Sooooo, after seeing this baby look so sad, I was miserable. I kept thinking 'that poor thing' I just wanted to go hug it and play with it.
Then on the way home, Kaitlyn starts crying uncontrollably. I was about 30 minutes away from home and my son gets out of school in about 35 minutes. Kaitlyn starts crying so hard that it sounds like she is throwing up and by this time I am also crying
. So I pull over to calm her down. I get out of my car and there is the remains of a dead animal RIGHT outside my car door.
I call my son at the school to tell him that I am going to be home a little late and he can just ride his bike around the neighborhood for a few minutes or wait in the backyard. I feel so bad about this. I think I get Kaitlyn calmed down and start back on the road again- she starts screaming again- I have never heard her cry like this, it was awful, but I had to get home to my son so I had to let her cry. It was heartbreaking. Finally I get home and just cuddled her and cried for a while.
I feel better now- but I am NEVER going to drive that far without someone else in the car with me again!
Sorry this is so long- but I sooo needed to vent.