I talked with a midwife-in-training. At first I wanted her to just be my UC backup, which she didn't want to do at first but is now considering. The weird part is the money. My insurance doesn't cover midwives, so we'd be paying out of pocket for that, which is about the same as my insurance deductible so if we did end up transferring to the hospital we'd basically be paying double. Seems simpler to just go to the hospital. I don't think I'll really have to be too bitchy - this is a small town with polite people. We haven't talked about it again since the other night, but I plan on discussing it in more detail with him about keeping a really open mind about staying home for as long as we're comfortable, etc. Anyway, I almost think it would be harder to have a UC with midwives (two would come) at home - they send a list of food for me to have for them, etc. It's a much more "friendly" thing and I honestly don't want a midwife at my birth anymore than I do a doctor. Probably doesn't make much sense, but those are my feelings about it!
Plus, the midwife is two hours away and would want me to go for prenatals, which I'm unwilling to do. No doulas around here either. I plan to ask people to stay out of our room, and if they do come in, my husband will keep them away from me.
I drove on some really horrible dirt roads today, just me and my daughter, they were all slushy with some ice, etc. I was sliding around all over the place, it was kind of scary and of course the baby started moving around and made me think about how that was definitely about the worst place I could go into preterm labor! I was SO far away from everything - an hour away from my hometown TINY hospital and farther than that away from anything bigger too. I'm not at all afraid of preterm labor, but the situation made me think about it. My husband was about 30 minutes away by car, but he only had his snowmobile and would have had a really hard time finding me even if he did get someone to drive him. I could have called an ambulance and told them where I was, but they would have taken at least an hour. Pretty interesting!
I still haven't had a gender dream, which is so ironic since I had one with Delia but didn't believe in it and I was ready to completely believe in one this time around. One of my friends thinks I'm going to have a boy - so much so that last night someone came up to me and said "So, Emily, I hear you're going to have a boy!" LOL I said "Uh, news to me!" I guess she overheard the friend discussing it with another friend and thought it was fact.
I did have a dream where my skin was super thin and I could feel every part of the baby totally clearly and it was super cool but also freaky. It was all skinny.
My Mom and Me Pouch arrived today. And my MIL asked me if there's anything she can get me (FINALLY! ROFL). But I actually think I'm going to tell her to wait until after it's born since I can't really think of anything right now, other than stuff that I'd want to be gender-specific.
I'm happy because we're having a warm spell and all the snow is melting, so my husband won't be snowmobiling anymore, which will be nice. Have I showed you all the video of Delia on her tiny snowmobile? http://deliaquick.com/delia_kitty_cat_2.mov
That girl is a daredevil! The standing up on the sled was her idea. Tonight she was touching the ceiling with her feet on her swing. The swing is on hooks on a beam, about 8" lower than the ceiling, so that's going higher than the height of the swing hooks!