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post #21 of 26
Not a MW, but I'm so sorry for your loss, and the family's.

The memorial sounded like it must have been really healing.

I hope you find the pieces you are looking for for healing and support. Good luck with the birth in Cambodia. I'm sure you have all the experience and abilities to carry on a successful career. *hugs*
post #22 of 26
So odd that this thread came up from so long ago, just as I am preparing to attend a funeral tomorrow for my first stillbirth.
Even though there is probably nothing I could've done, I somehow still feel responsible, thinking the "if onlys" and "what ifs":
post #23 of 26
I attended my first stillbirth (as a doula, I am not midwife) in November, a few months ago. It was a very intense experience.

One thing that struck me when I was reading your description was that my client and I talked later... she had to really push hard because the baby wasn't "helping" or participating in the process. She has always had easy pushing stages and at first she didn't quite "get" what she was needing to do- she didn't have the same urge. Also he was very small, he had Trisomy 18, so there wasn't as much pressure.

So she didn't have a long or hard pushing stage (from my experience of seeing women give birth), but for HER history, it was a longer/harder pushing stage than she was used to or expected, and I wonder if your client's baby also was not well- not working to get out, participating in the process.

I am so very sorry for you all and wish you healing and comfort, and the family also.

<hug>
Delilah
http://www.cherishbirth.com
post #24 of 26
Peace to you.
I just wanted to point out the strange fact that alternative practictioners (midwives, naturopaths etc) often question if the medical world could have done better in their situation, and possibly feel guilty. I wonder if medical professionals ever wonder if alternative practictioners could have done better.
post #25 of 26
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Hi
Thanks for all your comforting words.

The lucky thing is that the baby was born on a community (rainbow gathering), and the whole community came together to make a memorial.
It was so beautiful.
Some people wove a big basket in the shape of a swan out of a coconut palm frond, and built a big raft out of bamboo. then everyone filled the basket with gifts and offerings, prayers and wishes, then put the basket on the raft. Everyone carried the raft and made a big march from the main fire along the beach to the place where the baby was born, singing all the way.
Then we made a circle around the raft, and sang and prayed. Some people went around the circle giving fruits and water, we lit candles, and some people read poems, songs and prayers. then a group of people carried the raft and swam with it far out to sea.
This is so BEAUTIFUL. Thank you for sharing
post #26 of 26
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I hope it doesn't upset you too much majikfaerie that I bring up this thread again. It must have caused you many doubts I can imagine but I'm sure you also learned from it in many ways.

You said the pushing phase was very long from crowning until the baby was out. Do you remember how long that was?

Would you do anything different now if you were attending another birth with a long pushing phase like this? Like constantly try to monitor the heartrate or something?

I suppose after experience something like this, it gets easier to understand how people came up with all the interventions. :/
Interesting that this thread got brought up again. We just passed the anniversary of this birth, and the mother just gave birth to a healthy boy, a few weeks earlier.

She said it's interesting; though she is sad for the baby that she lost, she is also glad, in a way, as now she has this new baby, whom she is very much in love with, and would not have met otherwise.

She also said that this birth, in a German birthing centre, was not the 'wonderful, natural, peaceful experience' her first birth had been. Though the outcome was, obviously, much better, she felt a bit sad at how the birth was handled, even though she had laboured naturally with a minimum of interventions. The midwives still did electronic monitoring, and cut the cord before she was ready, and didn't have that feeling of unconditional support.

Deethai, I guess, in the identical situation, I might try more changing positions; I had tried to get the mother to change positions in the pushing phase more, but she was in a supported squat that she was comfortable in. She didn't want to move, and when I did get her to move, she wanted to change right back.

I think in that same case, I would probably do it all the same. The more I look at it, the more I see that I did everything that could be done, and some things are meant to be. It was a hard time, but a beautiful learning. The parents were in full trust and surrender.

Different parents, different setting, I might do some things differently. Every case is judged on its own merits, and every moment too.

I wrote an article about this birth, which can be found here

Deethai, if you like, I can give your contact to the mother, and maybe you can ask her about it.

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Originally Posted by sacredjourney View Post
Peace to you.
I just wanted to point out the strange fact that alternative practictioners (midwives, naturopaths etc) often question if the medical world could have done better in their situation, and possibly feel guilty. I wonder if medical professionals ever wonder if alternative practictioners could have done better.
yes, I often wonder why this is the case, especially when the statistics show again and again that home birth is safer, and western countries with higher rates of midwives and less interventions have much lower infant mortality rates than in the US.

and as an epilogue; the birth in Cambodia went very well; a healthy boy was born after 8 hours of good labour.
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