Thanks for the welcomes! I feel so at home already

Mommyhawk: I bake it with butter but my problem is that I don't have the kneading technique down right yet. I always overknead it and it gets rock hard (hockey puck bannock as we call it). My DH though is great at baking breads and can do it no problem, so the running joke in our house is that the bannock is edible if the white guy made it!

I'm actually in Alberta and most of my family is from southern Saskatchewan. The MB relatives lived there ca.1850-1860 before they moved to southern Saskatchewan. They were all gone by the resistance of 1870 for sure.
About the church and schools, yeah it's a tough one. My whole family on my Dad's side is Catholic (except our generation...my parents married inter-faith and we were raised Protestant) but I still attend a local Native Catholic church once in a while on special occasions and as a way of "connecting" with my ancestors and my heritage. I don't know if that makes sense, but going to the church on those occasions makes me feel closer to my family who has gone before me. I had my daughter baptised there as a way of continuing on with her heritage. The church is a Native-influenced Catholic one with sweetgrass and Native sprituality used during mass as well. I don't mind it. But I know what you mean about the feelings of anger and the schools. When I did my university degree in Native Studies and spent those years reading about the schools, the Indian Act, broken treaty promises, gov't fraud and duplicity, I had to process a lot of anger. Some of my classmates were residential school survivors and I could see how it had affected every aspect of their lives. One of them committed suicide a couple of years after we got our degrees. *heavy sigh* Man, oh man.
I don't know. I try to keep separate the Creator and the people who supposedly serve him here on Earth. God/the Creator is holy and sacred and pure and loving and forgiving, but all humans are fallible (even Native healers, some take advantage as well in the Creator's name). I'm not excusing or forgiving anything done in the schools. It was evil and wrong, wrong, wrong. But just for my own ability to still believe and have faith, I keep God separate from organized religion and its proponents.
((HUGS)) and hang in there...
J
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