Spastica I am so sorry for your loss

It's so very hard to wade through all the emotions; feeling lost, missing them so much and knowing that its just not fair. I think it is great that you are seeking out support, and letting yourself talk/type about it. I think this is a great way to for you to "do something" with all those feelings.
I found journaling almost cathartic for me, whether it was in an actual book or at forums...it was one of my stand-by tools and those really bleak days while I was grieving. I also started seeing a councilor. She was not necessarily a grief one, but just a good "ear" for me to talk my feeling through with. She also gave me a frame-work sort of prospective so that I didn’t feel quite so overwhelmed.
While it is likely little solace right now, I promise it will get easier a little each day
