I can't remember not knowing I was adopted. My mom always talked about my birth parents in a positive light. When my birthday came around, she would say that somewhere out there, someone else is thinking of you and wishing you a happy birthday (This was very comforting as a kid...but makes me feel a bit guilty as I'm now also a birthmom, and can't remember the exact day that my birthdaughter was born).
I never searched for birthparents or birthdaughter, but lurking on some of the adoption threads has gotten me thinking that I will. I might be moving overseas in a year, and it also has dawned on me that I'm getting kind of old. My birthdaughter will also be turning 20 this year. In addition, now having a toddler (my first child since my b-daughter was born), I'm feeling much more of a pull to get to know them.
My feelings about being adopted had a lot to do with why I didn't terminate my pregnancy back when I found out I was pregnant with b-daughter. However, I never turned out to be the anti-abortion activist that everyone expected I would. I viewed what I did as my personal choice, and my firm belief to this day is that the best thing you can do regardless of your take on this issue is to work for a society where mothers and children in all situations get the support they need.
At the beginning of the month, I am going to send in some paperwork to CC to start a search for my birthparents. I hope that they are still alive. I will also start the search for my birthdaughter.