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celeste and the other mamas who were asking about depression/anxiety . . . .

I thought about starting a new thread in PPD or M. Health but decided not to. I'll just post here.

I suffered from depression/anxiety for several years and took meds. I took zoloft and lexapro. Every time I'd stop them the depression or anxiety would come back. Sometimes right away, sometimes only after a few weeks. And it would always manifest itself differently.

For instance, sometimes I'd feel such anxiety like I had just had a near-miss car accident. Numb arms and all. Sometimes I'd just be pi$$ed off at the world for no reason. Other times just in the deep dark throes of true depression.

I took meds throughout both pregnancies and b'feeding. (Now I wish I hadn't, but well, I didn't know then what I know now.)

I did once have a script for Xanax (when I first went to a doc for help) but promptly threw them in the trash. My addictive personality knew better than to get involved in those.

I stopped the lexapro when Kate was only a few months old. I slowly weaned myself off. I had been feeling like I didn't really *need* it anymore and in the quest to figure out what was causing her sleeplessness, I stopped taking it.

I began the Specific Carbohydrate Diet, again to try to help Kate. THis diet eliminates processed and refined EVERYTHING. Eliminates grains, and of course wheat/gluten.

After about 5 months of this I realized I no longer had sugar cravings AT ALL anymore. I felt great! I never got sick (despite having no sleep and being totally run-down.)

I also added supplements. Cod liver oil, zinc, magnesium, calcium, the B vitamins *and* an extra B12. Hmmm . . . there might be more that I can't think of now - dd is talking to me as I type.

It was then that I realized that my depression was linked to nutrition. The SCDiet helped my body absorb the necessary nutrients from food (which it hadn't done properly . . . ever. . . and the supps helped too.

Gale Force wrote a book about this and she's the one who suggested that if I feel like I"m in a *crisis* to take an amino supplement. I bought one and used to take it during PMS. It helped immensely. But now I've just manifested no PMS so it's even better!

Oh, and I take 5htp (on the recommendation of Kate's doctor). He wanted to give it to her but I thought it'd help me sleep (I'm not sure it does anything for me really), but she's getting some through me.

I hope this helps. I wish someone had told me all those years ago when they were anxious to write a script that it could be related to nutrition (or lack thereof.)

It takes some time for the diet and supps to kick in but it's soooo much better than meds.

hth!
post #722 of 767
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Hey, anyone who's used the Holosync demo, did you feel it was ...I don't know, doing anything? Dh said he did.
I have listened to it twice now and I just don't know.
I have it sitting here on my desk but to be honest it kinda scares me.
post #723 of 767
Tara... my thoughts are with you and the little girl from the park.

Kate... sorry to hear you're not feeling well! Just think of how great it's going to be when you come out the other side! And thanks for the additional vote for my hotness.

Pat... so happy to have you and your wisdom back!

Zannalyn... another thought for you on the ex. I wonder if it would be helpful to think of her as an outside force for a moment. Maybe pretend this is a story that you are not at all emotionally invested in. Imagine if this were and acquaintance/friend (or friend of a friend, if anything more than that is too uncomfortable) telling you her own story. What would you say to her? What advice could you give her for healing herself? Because people don't behave this way unless they're hurting. Maybe you could even write this imaginary her a letter and suggest how she might go about reconnecting with her own inner being. Even though she'll never see it, that kind of energy might do a lot to offer healing for all of you.
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Annikate, thank you so much for sharing your experience. It seems like the carb thing is everywhere I turn this past week... I don't know why, but here in the US (as opposed to when we're living in China) the idea of giving up carbs is so scary. Probably an indication that I need to do it, huh?

So, how do I get myself past this resistance and really try it? I mean, specifically, how can I use LOA to do this? I'm certainly not giving my meds up yet, since I've just had my very first productive day in weeks, but I would like to start shifting my diet and then give up the meds in about 9 months. Any thoughts?

***

I've just had such a nice, creative day, and let me tell you, it feels SO GOOD. It's such a relief, after feeling like the world was going to end for so many weeks. I got a ton done for the shop... some uploaded today and I'll do some tomorrow. I'm going to take out my new guitar now and practice for a while!
post #725 of 767
I had the most wonderful manifesting afternoon! I managed to get a last minute appointment for a haircut and set the intention that the cut would be brilliant, and the stylist and I would have a fantastic conversation. Yep and yep! The cut is great, and the conversation was full of really awesome stories about really REALLY wealthy and generous friends of the stylist.

Then on the way home I decided to stop in at Good Will and see what great books would be there waiting for me. I found what looks like an easy, light, silly novel and then went to the kids section intending to find Island of the Blue Dolphins... Which I did!

Off to the movie store intending for funny movies - got two of them - and a couple of scratch tickets for the joy of playing that silly little game.

Fun fun fun! I love those little gems we manifest throughout the day!!
post #726 of 767
Celeste and Melanie, I'm glad you two are having a great day!

We had a great day too! Dh and I love working in the yard and we got a lot done again while the girls happily picked flowers and used their little brooms and rakes.

It's amazing how much easier things are getting now that the girls are getting older - oh, and LoA helps too!
post #727 of 767
Also wanted to say that a little church here is having a Secret discussion panel on the 15th! whoopeee! I have a friend and neighbor (and also MDC mama) who is going to go with me.
post #728 of 767
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Originally Posted by celesterra View Post
Annikate, thank you so much for sharing your experience. It seems like the carb thing is everywhere I turn this past week... I don't know why, but here in the US (as opposed to when we're living in China) the idea of giving up carbs is so scary. Probably an indication that I need to do it, huh?

So, how do I get myself past this resistance and really try it? I mean, specifically, how can I use LOA to do this? I'm certainly not giving my meds up yet, since I've just had my very first productive day in weeks, but I would like to start shifting my diet and then give up the meds in about 9 months. Any thoughts?
I am going to learn about the proper type of nutrition that will help ease my depression and anxiety.

I am going to find all the resources I need easily.

I am going to implement the changes in a way that is perfect for my body and my mind.

post #729 of 767
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Originally Posted by KoalaMama View Post
I had the most wonderful manifesting afternoon! I managed to get a last minute appointment for a haircut and set the intention that the cut would be brilliant, and the stylist and I would have a fantastic conversation. Yep and yep! The cut is great, and the conversation was full of really awesome stories about really REALLY wealthy and generous friends of the stylist.

Then on the way home I decided to stop in at Good Will and see what great books would be there waiting for me. I found what looks like an easy, light, silly novel and then went to the kids section intending to find Island of the Blue Dolphins... Which I did!

Off to the movie store intending for funny movies - got two of them - and a couple of scratch tickets for the joy of playing that silly little game.

Fun fun fun! I love those little gems we manifest throughout the day!!
I had something similar happen to me this morning. We were on our way to a state park with a spring to enjoy and I saw a garage sale sign and asked DH to just pull in for a sec while I jumped out. It turned out to be an ex-school teacher and she was selling a ton of great kids books for 25 and 50 cents each! I just felt the pull to stop there and hit the jackpot!

T
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Originally Posted by whimsy View Post
So do you say it Amris or Om-Ree?
Amris, the other pronunciation never occured to me, LOL.

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I did a crazy search on this thread to find the post where you gave us the addy. After I found it, it dawned on me that it's right there in your siggy isn't it?
No, that's my blog.

The url is www.amris-messagesoflove.com
post #731 of 767
Thread Starter 
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Originally Posted by celesterra View Post
I mean, specifically, how can I use LOA to do this? I'm certainly not giving my meds up yet, since I've just had my very first productive day in weeks, but I would like to start shifting my diet and then give up the meds in about 9 months. Any thoughts?
Imagine yourself on that day. You go into the bathroom, and you dump the remaining pills into the toilet. Now, infuse yourself with emotion as you flush the toilet. Really focus on FLUSHING those little bad boys, and how GREAT IT FEELS.

Say to yourself, with resounding, deep feeling, "I AM FREE!!"

Then say to yourself, "Today is November 1, and I am FREE!" Then just FLUSH THEM again.

Symbolism is very powerful.
post #732 of 767
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Originally Posted by Amris View Post
Imagine yourself on that day. You go into the bathroom, and you dump the remaining pills into the toilet. Now, infuse yourself with emotion as you flush the toilet. Really focus on FLUSHING those little bad boys, and how GREAT IT FEELS.

Say to yourself, with resounding, deep feeling, "I AM FREE!!"

Then say to yourself, "Today is November 1, and I am FREE!" Then just FLUSH THEM again.

Symbolism is very powerful.
True! And I actually flushed the xanax and didn't throw them into the trash can. If I did they would've been calling me . . .
post #733 of 767
I manifested 500 pm spots! Whoohooo! Now I don't have to delete every message I get!
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I manifested 500 pm spots! Whoohooo! Now I don't have to delete every message I get!
Why don't you save them on your hard drive?

Makes life much easier, IMO.
post #735 of 767
I would second what Terri said -- I recommend anyone working through anxiety, depression, or any other mental, emotional, or even physical illness or situation seek out a good nutritionist. The one I saw when I was going through some mental health issues some years ago was amazing -- when doctors were telling me I would "most likely need medication the rest of my life" and other complete nonsense like that, I knew I had the ability to heal myself by the grace of God (just my belief system folks, no dogma here lol) -- and the nutritionist was one piece of the big puzzle but she helped me A LOT.

I would recommend anyone seek out a nutritionist and of course if you can't afford one -- I couldn't, my beautiful and kind stepsister who believed in my healing so much paid for it -- do research online because I found a lot of things online in addition to my nutritionist's findings which were way helpful.

Oh ps -- during the *worst* of it I was on medication a total of two months close to five years ago -- have not been on any medication of any kind since -- it is possible to be healed and to heal yourself.


ETA: I will say though, that above most things (but all tied together) what helped the most was SELF CARE and I know this is so hard for women and/or mamas to do a lot of the time but it is IMPERATIVE. You know the old advice, but it is so, so, so important for mental/emotional/physical healing and well-being -- plenty of (healthy) sleep, plenty of water, staying away from caffeine/stimulants/drugs etc, exercise, knowing when to rest (i.e. settle your mind), meditation, proper nutrition, surrounding yourself with people who uplift your spirit, self regulating media (tv or computer or whatever) , gratitude, visualization, faith (no matter what you believe in or not...just faith in something!) those things I think helped me just as much, if not more, than anything else
post #736 of 767
Dd cried her little heart out about not being able to nurse tonight.

Oh man, it's soooo hard. I've been kind of doing the second-guessing game w/myself tonight. *why can't you nurse her longer?, you know CLW is the way it should be, what's wrong w/you you crappy mother*, etc..

I know I'm not a crappy mom, and I know that CLW is just not for me but my mind has been saying these things to me tonight while I watched dd's little face and listened to her beg for milky milk.
post #737 of 767
ok ok ok ok ok ok ok--cool stuff.

my world is just awesome awesome and more awesome every freakin' awesome moment of awesomeness.

where shall i start?

maybe with the last mimsy. that's a movie, based on a short story that i've never read. but i wanted to see the movie. so i watched the movie. and it made so much sense. and it was cool because i was getting little glimmers of 'remember this' and it would lead to a pathway of something i've been studying with the Ramtha/Seth/Buddhist/Yoga/LoA/Secret, but i had to keep focusing on the movie because the material was coming fast and furious throught he film.

and i'm sitting there going 'glimmer-glimmer-glimmer' and bells and whistles going off and all kinds of connections about time space, human potential, developing certain skills (like siddhis/siddhus, ascention stuff, i mean just crazy stuff that i've read about before but thought was symbolic) and i totally started to understand the geometry of it at a different level--that's completely not intellectual so it was totally like zen koans.

and then i listen to this U2 song--windows in the sky--and just BLAMMO! things made sense and well. . . .yeah.

so, i manifested whatever THAT is.

and then some other things manifested. I made a connection about a manifestation that was so cool because it came through gratitude work.

over the last year or two, DH and i have been "on the move." not to sound all high and mighty or anything, but i've pretty much been the only and best yoga game in town around these parts for quite a while. most folks would have had to drive 20 or 30 mintues for something, and here i was showing up in their gyms. And, well, there's a thriving little community around here.

and when i would go out of town, they'd be like 'boo hoo' because--well, they're spoiled.

so, i'm on the move. that's what i was talking about.

i'm on the move, that is, and i knew that i would have to leave them. but i felt bad. you know? i wanted to be able to 'leave them in good hands' but i could never figure out how. I thought "well, i could train up some good teachers from my students" but i just realized that most of my students just want to be students and not everyone is meant to be a teacher and that's all cool anyway. i did want to lead teacher training, btw, and figured this might be a how.

of course, neither of those things ever connected into that 'how.' you know, because you can't think about how, now can you? leave that up to the universe and it'll align. so, i never pushed it. it was like 'Look, i want to lead teacher training. And i want to be able to leave my students in good hands."

so, i get this opportunity to teach in NZ and what do they want? someone to train teachers. Go figure. How awesome is that? and, i can do it. here's the curriculum, it's all done, and well, woohoo! yay. it manifested (yeah, the how on that is so cool to look back on).

and so then this yoga studio opens in town. i check it out, thinking "ah, this might be a place to leave my students, once the move is totally manifest (it's manifesting now. but isn't complete yet). so, i check it out. Allie is great--sweet person, smart, devoted to yoga practices--brand spankin' new. yeah, great, but not the right fit for my students. a couple of my students went there and said "no, not the right fit."

a bit of disappointment. but, i was like 'well, you know, it'll work out, i'll not worry about it." and so i don't.

then a student says "hey, have you seen that new yoga place opening up by the dutch bakery?" (5 minutes drive from my house, yo) and i say "say what?" and i go check it out. there, i meet the owner, Jason, who is an experienced and highly trained yoga teacher really wanting to provide a community space for people who want to 'go deep' with yoga--beyond fitness and asana, though that will still be a big component. He's hiring super-awesome teachers who are really committed to the practice and connecting with students and building community. it's just AWESOME.

and then today i realize "my prayers have been answered." here i am leaving on Wednesday for my first trip to NZ (to train teachers no less! LOL) and then i find this place that is opening when? in APRIL. hello? ha!

my students will be taking the classes at the gyms, etc, while i'm away--but they do this not because they want the yoga but because they want my job to be there when i get back. i love them. But they say "what will we do for yoga?" and i'm like oh, you go talk to jason.

and jason gets a slew of students for his first month, which will start the word of mouth and set him up right--god bless this endeavor--and i know that when the move is complete, everyone has a home-sweet-home--and i have a place that when i come back to visit, i can always lead workshops and give yoga love to all of my yoga peeps.

i know, i sound high. it's because i manifested something else!

my DH and i decided to go to downtown phoenixville--which is revitalizing so nicely--and go to our favorite coffee shop. but i didn't want coffee or chai, i said "i really want something like what i got at elixir when we were there in november. i don't drink regular sodas, but i will add fruit juice to soda water occassionally, or add elixir to soda water when i have them (i've run out!). i wanted a soda, but not a regular soda because i dont' drink those.

so, i go into the coffee house and they have this new offering--Italian soda. woweee! i find out it's pure cane sugar, certain natural flavorings, etc. i got an orange soda and it was great! just what i wanted. there it was.

and then guess what? ha! they gave it to me for free. why? because the soda water wasn't as 'bubbly' as they thought it should be. Woohoo!

so, i do have a *tinsy* bit of a sugar high.
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Dd cried her little heart out about not being able to nurse tonight.

Oh man, it's soooo hard. I've been kind of doing the second-guessing game w/myself tonight. *why can't you nurse her longer?, you know CLW is the way it should be, what's wrong w/you you crappy mother*, etc..

I know I'm not a crappy mom, and I know that CLW is just not for me but my mind has been saying these things to me tonight while I watched dd's little face and listened to her beg for milky milk.
Oh, sweety, that must be so hard.

Just tell her that you love her, and that she's moving into a new phase of her life. That you're still there for her and still love spending time with her and holding her.

I imagine you left the room and cried just as hard. It will work out, dear. Everything will be okay.
post #739 of 767
zoebird, thank you for posting that at just the right time : your post brought me out of the and now I'm buzzzing FOR YOU!

You are a MANIFESTING MASTER! whooohooo! I hope you enjoy your trip! THat sounds wonderful!
post #740 of 767
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Oh, sweety, that must be so hard.

Just tell her that you love her, and that she's moving into a new phase of her life. That you're still there for her and still love spending time with her and holding her.

I imagine you left the room and cried just as hard. It will work out, dear. Everything will be okay.
thanks.
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