out with the negative, in with the positive (vent)

[cosmotion]

my "due date" was thursdae
and i'm going to give birth completely unassisted.

DP is so lazy at times. however, i think, when i'm not pregnant, i think of his laziness more as an"easy goingness"
we've had to switch rooms because the room we had been sleeping in will be too hot and humid for baby kinetic

wow. getting him to actually help with the moving took some effort.
i mean, i think i've spent the last two months trying to persuade him...
eventually, i just started doing it myself.
took a part a desk and moved it into the attic.
picked up TONS of trash
washed and hung out to dry loadsandloadsandloadddsssss of laundry.

i am completely exhausted. and, so, lastnight decided i needed to call in some back up.
my wonderful friend and her boyf came over and by the end of the night
we had everything moved.
and all that is left, now is cleaning out some stuff and some painting

DP is STILL not wanting to help. he says: " i would rather just rush around doing it when i am for shore that something is happening " :

(whhaaa??)

i'm not one to tell anyone what to do. (hey, we're all our own brains, are we not??) so i accept that and move on.
at first
i am having mild contractions, and some pains in my sides
and still have to finish painting baby's bed, clean out the closet, tackle the mountain of garbage bags sitting in the hallway, put baby's things away, and vacuum.

nesting is making my brain crazy.
part of me feels like this is a completely imaginary problem.
i'm fairly certain it is.

is any of this actually necessary??

something inside me just says "keep going"
but i know i will be sorry if i don't try and get some sleep.
it's a constant battle between those thoughts.
ahhh!!

okaye. end of vent.

phew. all better.
my human needs a bath and my brain needs a rest.
i'm gonna go get on that.

[sparkprincess]

Oh I hear you!! My dh is a major procrastinator. He pushes things off, and pushes things off...until the last minute. Then he can really crack down and get things done....but he's crabby about it the whole time.

I hope you do get the rest you need!! I've been trying to remind myself to slow down. With my first pregnancy I had a major nesting urge at the end and over-did it. Ended up having a super long labor and I REALLY wish I had been well rested. Please take care of yourself!

[Yo Becca]

My DH changed his ways in the nick of time today...before I totally lost my cool on him. He's only home on the weekend s- commutes 5 days a week. I swear that for the past month, he's been "sick" every weekend - except last weekend, when he went fishing. and several weekends, we've spent one day at home and one day with his family - sick on the at-home day, fine to go do stuff with his family. Which means that all the things on our to-do list, many of which I need help with, have been stagnating waiting for him.

I know it's not intentional - he really has been feeling bad (although today it was a headache - I don't remember the last time I was able to laze about b/c I had a headache) - but it's still frustrating and infuriating. I've been sick several times lately also - but home alone single-parenting a toddler, so I haven't gotten any respite.

But he sucked it up, unvelcroed himself from the couch and we actually got a LOT done today. But if he didn't do it on his own, I was going to put my foot down. Being a partner means being a *partner* - some things have to get done, and it's ridiculous to not get help.

Good luck and hope your DP figures out that waiting until the last minute isn't the best plan!

[feminist~mama]

I try SO HARD to be mellow and accept my DP for who he is. Unfortunately, I'm NOT mellow and am actually rather uptight! LOL.

DP's choices frequently make me breathe very deeply while I bite my tongue! Good for you for doing what you want done and finding help without resorting to arguing with your DP!! Especially because you're "past due"!

Good luck with your birth mama!