|Originally posted by frogertgrl
Bec, your story of birthing made me cry. Oh, how hard for you and DD!! I always cry when I read stories as yours...you've learned so much, that is obvious and I commend your strength and vowing next time will be different.
It was hard, and I have shed lots of tears about it. And thanks for the support. It means a lot to me. I have great support irl, and that is making a huge difference. DH is fabulous. He listens to everything I say, reads anything I ask him to, and is one of the best cheerleaders you could ask for.
I think my biggest hurdle now is my own self-confidence. I'm working at it, bit by bit, but it's hard. My trust in my body was shattered during the whole experience and after. Succeeding in nursing went a long way in helping to pick up the pieces, but it's like they're all just precariously balanced. I'm working on gluing it all together so it's solid. My brain knows I can do this. Not just think, but really knows it. I just have to convince my heart.
This site is the absolute best. DH and my family and friends are great, but they haven't been there (only one friend has. She's pregnant and due in August, so I'm holding my breath to see how she does). Being able to talk to people that have lived it is a huge inspiration for me.