Kate -- so glad to hear you had a blast with Terri! I can't believe you met her before Tara and I did and we live like an hour away
too funny --- your manifesting powers are out of the park woman!
Tara -- Sorry to hear you're still feeling blah -- the second trimester is right around the corner sister then you'll be having sex 3 times a day and feeling like you can do anything
Healing vibes your way and it is okay to feel blah about how you are physically feeling while still feeling incredibly blessed and grateful for your pregnancy and the life growing within you --- it is not an either/or thing in this case (imo) like you can still feel blessed and grateful while thinking "damn, hemmroids sure do suck though"
I want to get together when you are feeling better though!
So, this afternoon Dh sold a guitar effects pedal and two guitars to a local guitar shop for some extra money because we are tight this week (UNTIL NOW!!) --- To be fair, he hadn't used the effects pedal and guitars for a way long time - - I was so proud of how *LOA* he was -- he was talking all about that someone could use them more and thinking of a teenager or something walking into the store saying to his parents "I LOVE this guitar.. it is only blah blah amount, can I get it!!" and being all excited --- and talking about decluttering and how he is living in a mindset of abundance because he is putting it out there (and getting money for it!) believing that something better will come for him when he needs it ---
Besides, we still have 3 guitars, a banjo, a mandolin, a keyboard, a drum kit, and 4 more effects pedals along with 2 amps so don't go feeling like he sold the farm to feed us or something
I was just so proud of his whole attitude about it, it was really remarkable to me to see how at peace he was with getting rid of musical items (music is our passion) ---
Anyway, I was decluttering and getting ready for treasure mapping and looking around at our humble apartment and I felt this swell of pride and joy and warmth. Sure, it ain't the Ritz by any stretch
but it is where I birthed our daughter --- where we have had so many family meals -- where I threw my husband his surprise 35th birthday party --- where dd took her first steps and said her first words and spent her first night on this earth. We laugh here, we have cried here, we have comforted eachother and danced in the living room and have been sick here and have gotten well again here -- this is where we dream and plan and where we hold eachother and where we rest our heads after long days -- this is where we are happy to be when we have been in much fancier houses, because their homes aren't our home. This is where it smells like Nag Champa and homemade muffins. This is where we watched with facination and my daughter's glee, a racoon mama and baby play out in our backyard one night when we had left water in the baby pool. This is where we laid under the Christmas tree and sang songs to eachother and our baby basking in the glow of love and warmth and tiny white lights.
I know when we are financially free we will leave this place -- and we will take our memories with us, forever in our hearts, safe from any change of scenery. I look forward to when we do get our land for dd to run and our home where we can do whatever we want with the decor and where it is entirely ours. I welcome that season, and I know it will come...
...but today, I am pretty darn grateful to be exactly where I am because I know it is exactly where I need to be. Our little humble home is a home of love, peace, and comfort, and today that really hit me.
(Oh, but I will still move in a heartbeat when we are financially free... listening Universe? Don't love it that much