on March 19th
at around 8 am i began to feel sudden and intense pain down below
almost immediately i was having to close my eyes and focus to get through them.
they were close together
and lingering
i went about my business, hoping something would happen soon...
at about 1 am that night
i began to feel like i couldn't do it anymore
and i began crying from the intense pressure
DP was rushing around like a madman
fetching warm rags out of the crock pot and holding them onto my lower back.
by 6 am i felt as though the contractions were becoming more intense
however
i also felt as though something was stalled
i had been planning a UC
and things were starting to look a little bleak
this was my first pregnancy
and i thought i was more prepared
i hadn"t been able to sleep
and had been having intense contractions for the last twenty four hours
after lotsalotsa tears and talking with dp
we decided i should go to the hospital
i felt like such a failure
luckily
when we arrived at the hospital
my nurse was amazing
and agreed to pretty much everything that i wanted done
or not done
she examined me pretty quickly after arriving
and i was only at two centimeters!
i couldn't believe it!
she said that she thought my contractions were terribly intense because his head was rather large
and very low
after she examined me, my mucous plug began to fall out
and i started leaking amniotic fluid and progressed to four centimeters
the doctor, who was a very narrow-minded asshole, began pressuring me to let him break my bag of waters
and even pulled the c-section scare out of his bag of tricks
i just kept refusing and saying "childbirth is not a medical procedure and i do NOT consent"
all of this after telling me that since they had no record of my being GBS negative they were going to need to treat me as a "worst case scenario"
and give me antibiotics
by this time, i had been in labour for almost thirty hours
and was losing the ability to walk or fight back.
luckily, dp knew exactly what i wanted and didn't want
at some point the doctor came in and told me was breaking my water and was not going to argue about it
and before i had time to refuse
he did it.
i began to cry
after that, things began to get hazy
and so intense
i opted for the smallest amount of stadol they could give me
and was able to sleep through the hardest part of labour
and by the time my body was ready to push, i was well rested
(i woke up and the contractions had been replaced by the urge to push)
and wow, the urge to push was an amazingly relieving sensation.
the nurse got out the squatting bar and i let my body take over
the doctor came in and was actually pissed off that i was using the squatting bar and reccomended some ridiculously uncomfortable way of pushing (legs in the air type thing)
and i screamed at him
he got frustrated and said, "i can't work like this"
forty five minutes of pushing, some intense marks on dp's hands
and one primal scream later
gravity took sagan tesla kinetic by the hands and brought him to planet earth
seven pounds
four ounces
twenty one inches long
it wasn't the UC that i had hoped and planned for
but i wouldn't change it for anything
i feel like i worked hard to be able to hold such an amazing human being in my hands
there are no words
in any human tongue
that can describe how my brain felt
when i finally held him
or when i finally felt his head crown
it was completely indescribable.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v4...DSCF3935-1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v4...y/DSCF3909.jpg
at around 8 am i began to feel sudden and intense pain down below
almost immediately i was having to close my eyes and focus to get through them.
they were close together
and lingering
i went about my business, hoping something would happen soon...
at about 1 am that night
i began to feel like i couldn't do it anymore
and i began crying from the intense pressure
DP was rushing around like a madman
fetching warm rags out of the crock pot and holding them onto my lower back.
by 6 am i felt as though the contractions were becoming more intense
however
i also felt as though something was stalled
i had been planning a UC
and things were starting to look a little bleak
this was my first pregnancy
and i thought i was more prepared
i hadn"t been able to sleep
and had been having intense contractions for the last twenty four hours
after lotsalotsa tears and talking with dp
we decided i should go to the hospital
i felt like such a failure
luckily
when we arrived at the hospital
my nurse was amazing
and agreed to pretty much everything that i wanted done
or not done
she examined me pretty quickly after arriving
and i was only at two centimeters!
i couldn't believe it!
she said that she thought my contractions were terribly intense because his head was rather large
and very low
after she examined me, my mucous plug began to fall out
and i started leaking amniotic fluid and progressed to four centimeters
the doctor, who was a very narrow-minded asshole, began pressuring me to let him break my bag of waters
and even pulled the c-section scare out of his bag of tricks
i just kept refusing and saying "childbirth is not a medical procedure and i do NOT consent"
all of this after telling me that since they had no record of my being GBS negative they were going to need to treat me as a "worst case scenario"
and give me antibiotics
by this time, i had been in labour for almost thirty hours
and was losing the ability to walk or fight back.
luckily, dp knew exactly what i wanted and didn't want
at some point the doctor came in and told me was breaking my water and was not going to argue about it
and before i had time to refuse
he did it.
i began to cry
after that, things began to get hazy
and so intense
i opted for the smallest amount of stadol they could give me
and was able to sleep through the hardest part of labour
and by the time my body was ready to push, i was well rested
(i woke up and the contractions had been replaced by the urge to push)
and wow, the urge to push was an amazingly relieving sensation.
the nurse got out the squatting bar and i let my body take over
the doctor came in and was actually pissed off that i was using the squatting bar and reccomended some ridiculously uncomfortable way of pushing (legs in the air type thing)
and i screamed at him
he got frustrated and said, "i can't work like this"
forty five minutes of pushing, some intense marks on dp's hands
and one primal scream later
gravity took sagan tesla kinetic by the hands and brought him to planet earth
seven pounds
four ounces
twenty one inches long
it wasn't the UC that i had hoped and planned for
but i wouldn't change it for anything
i feel like i worked hard to be able to hold such an amazing human being in my hands
there are no words
in any human tongue
that can describe how my brain felt
when i finally held him
or when i finally felt his head crown
it was completely indescribable.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v4...DSCF3935-1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v4...y/DSCF3909.jpg
