I just want to cry!

[DayDreamer]

I know everyone is probably sick of all the whining over due posts...but I am getting so depressed I just want to sit here and cry.

I have no signs that labor is ever going to start. The baby is in there moving like crazy. My BH cntx aren't getting any stronger or more frequent. I have itty bitty bits of mucous every now and again (I did lose quite a bit about a week ago, since then, nothing) I look wishfully at the TP when I wipe looking for a streak of blood or something, but nothing.

I'm trying to rest, rest, rest because I want to be prepared to get through labor, but I have rested so much I get bored. Then I go out and do something to get my mind off things and I come home in pain. I can barely lift my right leg to get into my car and at sometimes I can't barely lift it to even walk. I come home and cry in pain (in my right hip/leg). Then I have another crappy nights sleep because the pain keeps me awake.

One thing is I have noticed my undies being a little wet. Nothing like soaked or anything, just damp. I don't know if my water could be leaking or if I am leaking pee. Oh, and about my pee, it's DARK dark yellow, almost brown. I am staying hydrated, too. With my DS, he was born and we don't know when my water ever broke. We kept waiting for it to break as he was being born and it didn't. I think it just all leaked over time, so that's what I'm concerned is happening now.

My DH wants me to go at least get checked at the hospital this weekend if there is no baby yet. (I'll be 42 weeks) I'm not totally against the idea but I'm afraid of going to the hospital. I mean, really, what will they do? I've had NO formal prenatal care and I'm worried of what they will do to me at the hospital. Will I be allowed to come home if everything is "OK"? Will I be forced into testing? What will they be able to tell me?

I'm really getting depressed. Not just the blues because I want to have my baby. Seriously depressed because as much as I'm trusting my body I feel it is letting me down. And the comments coming from everyone IRL aren't helping either. I actually flipped on my dad today because he keeps making comments about calling an ambulance and telling the ER that he is responsible for me because I am mentally incompetent. Like I said, being surrounded by these comments are not helping anything and if I avoid everyone I feel equally as miserable being isolated.

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[MsElle07]

Remember two things: 1) Your baby knows the perfect time to be born, and 2) this will all be worth it.

[lunabelly]

I've been realizing lately that a baby's timing is one of the few things in life we have no control over, and it's really frustrating! Is there something you can do to take your mind off of it that doesn't require getting in and out of the car? I just checked out a whole bunch of fluff novels from the library and am reading them like I would like to eat junk food. Of course, I don't get very far before I fall asleep . . . .

Hang in there! It's almost over.

[DecemberSun]

Oh, those last few weeks/days/hours just draaaaaaag on, don't they? We've all been there and it sucks, and all I can say is I understand, Mama.

Instead of going to the hospital I'd find a women's center- you know, like a free clininc or something? They'd be more willing to give you a sound examination without making you feel guilty for not having prenatal care (they deal with it all the time). Or call a midwife, I'm sure she'd check you out just to ease your mind, even though you're not an established patient. At least it might make you feel better.

Your baby is coming out someday, it's just a pain in the leg/hip/back/butt waiting for it to happen. Hang in there.

[avaylee]

I just wanted to send you a . And lots and lots of labor vibes!

[Yo Becca]

Amber - i was in a similar position last week - I rolled 42 weeks on wednesday and was still puttering *every* day - having some BH ctx, some more intense ctx, but no clear signs of imminent labor. I was getting very frustrated too. But labor is, indeed, inevitable. Your body has done this 2ce, it's going to do it again. You will not be delivering a toddler!

A few things I would recommend: when you are out and about, take it easier, and get off your feet when you start to feel tired. Stay active, walk if you can, but keep it easy and manageable. Eat fresh pineapple, have sex (with your DH, if possible, all by yerself if not), take Evening Primrose Oil orally (2-3X per day), once per day vaginally if you are comfortable doing so (it'll ripen your cervix, best before a nap or bed), drink your RRL tea...I consider these the basics when you are hitting 42 weeks. If you want to get a bit more aggressive...go get an acupuncture treatment. If done correctly, it's supposed to be effective within 48 hours, if your body is ready.

But don't get too caught up trying to make things happen - they'll inevitably happen. If you do want to get checked, I would second a women's clinic or a midwife over the hosp. And if you *do* end up going somewhere, you have the right to decline any treatment, procedure, etc. they can't keep you there. They may try and may refuse to treat you if you don't do things their way, so you and your DH should be prepared for how you would handle that situation.

[sparkprincess]