Am I the only one crazy enough to be in school this semester?

[LilMomma83]

OMG!!!!

I am driving myself crazy!!!! I thought it would be a great idea to take a full load of classes the semester (and this is the first semester I have taken more than 7 credits since I started working fulltime).

I recently transfered to a 4yr university and get a discount on my classes for this semester only...so that is my wierd logic.

I took into account the whole idea that I will most likely have my baby before Finals etc; but it NEVER occured to me how tired and unfocused I would be. I stayed up until almost midnight (with DH helping me) and then got up at 4am and I am suposed to have class at 8am (takes me almost an hour to get there) and now at 6am I am not finished with my project and just want to go to sleep...I am feeling totally uncreative and have been staring at blank powerpoint for ages.

I know I am a "chronic-over-commiter" and that should have stopped me....AAAH!!!!

My house is a wreck...I am stretched so thin that I am just doing horrible at everything.

I guess I just have to let off some steam, I am super overwhelmed...is anyone else feeling this way? Does anyone else WAY overcommit??? Do you think I will learn not to before this little guy is born??? I am terrified of what will happen once I go back to work and school at the end of the summer...I will probably let me family down so much...if I am hardly managing now with no children (born yet) what will it be like then?? Am I a horrible mother? Wife? Should I quit school - maybe I am just being selfish wanting to continue???

I am starting to feel like everyone else is right...I'm too young, I should have waited to get out of school...waited until DH and I were more settled in financially etc...but no. I always pick my own path...and sincerely believe it's right...but maybe it's not???

I am so sorry to be this negative I don't know what is getting into me I broke down at work twice this past week and with DH last night...I just wish I could fast forward a bit and see if everything will be ok.

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Maybe I should just go back to bed and skip school...I could sleep until 1pm and still get to work on time...

[yakmom_8]

((((((hugs)))))))

School is always crazy hard -work or not - baby or not - married or not---

The last month of pregnancy I think we are designed to be "unfocused" because really we are focused on our babies and on birth.

Remember the baby will come whether you get everything done or not. baby is on its own timetable.

Breakdowns are good - we're women - right? That's how we deal.

Do you remember the time you wanted to be in the wave surfing contest and you kept climbing up the big cliff with your kayak and you kept slipping and falling back into the river ---- eventually you made it over the rock --- and you got on the wave and you did very well (and you had fun!)

This time is a big rock - very hard, very frustrating, very tiring....but you are going to make it

You will figure out how much you can do once the baby is here --- and you will figure it out again and again over the years to come. You are going to be a fantastic wife and mom! Sure you will make some mistakes and you will overcommitt at times ---- but you will step back and reassess and figure it out...

Sleep! Sleep! Sleep!

I love you!

bet you can guess who (hope I am not butting in to much)

xoxoxo