I do feel better. I definately feel like I'm on my way to feeling much better. It's taking the plunge to ask for help and then figure out how to get it. People always keep up with you shortly after you have children to make sure your feeling OK, then after a year, or two, or three goes by...no one asks anymore and it makes you feel like your not supposed to be feeling that way. So asking for help was the hardest thing, and thankfully I had a place to go. Here. I worry about people now who don't. But anyway, thank you for your concern and advice. Kelli