Thank you all. As far as physiological reasons, apparently I don't have any fibroids, endometrial issues, or intestinal obstructions. At least that's good. My hormones have been massively screwed up since the birth of my first child, miscarriages, messed up cycles, etc.
It may be more psychological for me, not in the "I wanted a baby so bad I could hardly stand it" way, though we were trying to get pregnant. I started working full time and felt horribly guilty leaving my ds with a string of people who were wholly inadequate, or undependable, or both. I "got pregnant" and had such terrible, mind-blowing symptoms, it got to the point I couldn't work anymore. One of the reasons everyone suspected twins. I quit at "26 wks" or so.
Other than feeling really dumb, I'm not horrendously upset about it. I've got so much I want to do now. A million projects I've been wanting to finish and a million more I want to start. I can be happy with the family I have for now, and worry about ttc again later. It's still a possibility for the future, but I'm definitely going to lay off the baby stuff for now, guess it made me kinda nuts.
I still haven't told most of the family, though. They thought I was getting prenatal care. I have no idea what to say to them, but I can't avoid them forever. If I tell them the whole truth, UP and all, I may make things worse for myself. I'm not falling apart, but I am feeling sort of fragile. If I make something up, it's gonna be a whopper. I feel so