The idea of starting over with a brand new baby, when I've finally got a "little human" that I've managed to keep alive, and who actually seems happy and fairly well-adjusted, and pretty smart and capable...(well...she's surpassed the dog, at least, in most respects regarding interaction and ability)...to start back at square one again?
I guess I'm just lazy. I just don't want to go through all of it again. Here's what I did one day....
-It was cool to be pregnant. People give you more attention.
-I did like buying maternity clothes.
-It was exciting to dream about what she would be like
-Ummmmm....I'm already out of pros
-I've never been so tired in my life
-Yet not able to sleep
-Spending 3 months feeling like I'm about to hoark
-Spending the next 3 months eating every cupcake I could find
-All the freakin' Dr. visits, tests, etc...yuck (worries me too much)
-I seriously cannot imagine being pregnant AND chasing around a 2-3 yr old.
I'm still looking for an alternative way to satisfy those unreasonable baby cravings, though. Whenever I see a babe in an Ergo, I melt. Maybe I just need more Ergos.
People tell us how we'll want more than one, and we always say no, we won't. We want our child to know what it is to value alone time as well as group time. We want to not add to the overpopulation problem any more than possible, but we do want to raise a person who is eco-conscious. We want to be able to have all of our resources (what little we have right now) to be able to go toward this one person. We want to go through the sleepless nights once, not multiple times, and be able to move forward with this one person as s/he develops into an adult.
Maybe we're crazy...but yeah, that's the gist of it.
I still am baffled how other people (often strangers) can tell you what YOU will want.