Well, she turned from complete breech to transverse. She was tolerating the procedure very well, but they couldn't get her any farther so they stopped, leaving her there. Which of course means that - if she doesn't move back - the only way out is via c/s AND my risk of prolapsed cord just went up.
: They (the mw & ob) expect me to call back today to schedule my c-section, preferably for tomorrow.
I cannot stop crying. I know that there are plenty of mamas that plan sections, don't have a problem with them, etc. But I have fought so FREAKING hard to have this baby at home. It's just not fair. Even if she were to turn, at this point dh is so freaked out about the risk of prolapsed cord and other complications if we stay home (I'd only do this if she returned to her original Frank breech position) that he just wants me to schedule the section. I don't think he fully understands the implications of that: that he will be working full-time and going to school full time and I will be at home with a 2 y/o and a newborn recovering from major abdominal surgery trying to finish unpacking and getting moved into our new house. Just thinking about the situation we're facing right now makes me want to throw up. Literally.
I know that there are mamas in this ddc who are facing MUCH, MUCH worse difficulties with sick babies, etc. I understand that my situation must pale in comparison and I know I should be grateful that my baby and I are both healthy at this point and I should just suck it up and schedule the section, since that's what at this point is most likely to result in a good outcome for everybody. I'm just paralyzed with fear.