hi there...
I have had two cesarean births. My older daughter is almost 14 and was born surgically in 1989. My younger daughter is almost 3 and was born also by emergency cesarean surgery in 2000. I am going to vbac the baby I'm pregnant with now with the love and support of my husband, daughters, friends, a sorta-doula and a certified nurse midwife. I am not birthing at the birthing center where I see the midwife tho I wish they'd let me. I will be having the baby at a local hospital just to be safe.
Everyone is different - in both of my cases I believed the cesareans were due to induction with pitocin, the epidural that followed etc. I know that i can birth this baby naturally. The chance of uterine rupture is less then 1% (i'd take those odds in vegas).
I know what you mean about feeling like you haven't had a baby. I feel like that. Thats why I'm so adamant bout this birth being so different. After reading the vbac companion, birthing from within and a few other amazing books I discovered that I really want to push this baby out into the world. And i really know that I can do so.
Anyway, i'll also be 38 when this baby comes and honestly i can't handle the thought of recovery from another abdominal surgery with a newborn , a 3 year old etc. The recovery from the cesarean births was so hard on my body. But mostly I want to hold my child right away, not have him whisked away since I'm too numb to hold him. I want to nurse right away and not have to wait w hile they sew me up. I want to be up and aware and a part of his entrance into the world .
I know there is a chance for cesarean this time. Theres always that possibility with any birth. But i'm doing everything in my power to avoid it. Knowledge is power. I'm reading everything i can get my hands on. talking to tons of mamas on line and irl, doing fear release work, eating right, excercising, working with a midwife instead of an ob, found a vbac friendly hospital with a low csection rate and will be avoiding pitocin and epidural at all costs.
feel free to email or pm if you want to talk. theres lots of great info and support on the web too
good luck to you
