Today is the day my son died.
Time can be so cruel..it feels like forever since I last held my precious son..but it hurts just as much as it did when I let him go. I miss him so so much!We were blessed w/5 days together. He was so strong..and such a fighter. He had actually been showing signs of some improvement..but then he was just gone. I remember leaving him that day..I had been at his side almost his entire life. But I just needed a little time away from that hospital. So my dh and I traded places..and a friend and I headed home. On the way..my dh called me and told me to come back. We lost him that day. Part of me died w/him....watching him take his last breath in his daddy's arms..holding his lifeless body after he died.
:I am still working thru all the guilt I feel..somehow it just all seems like I didn't do enough. But above all else..I loved my little boy. I just wish that had been enough. I have my faith..and know I will hold him again some day. It's just getting thru the days until then.
There are too many tears now to go on..but thank you for letting me share my son. It still upsets me that everyone has forgotten about him..and most think I should as well. I will never forget my precious angel..NEVER! He is w/me always..tucked safely in my heart.
