April 15-21 Manifesting Mamas - Page 3

[KoalaMama]

A bunch of stuff I missed!

Penny... Way to go on the concert! Keep on goin' mama! Can't wait to hear more from you when you hit a rest.

darwinphish... Woo hoo!! Wow, that is so cool! You are such an inspiration!

Karlin... Welcome!!!

Terri... Congrats on the weaning! Sounds like it went very gently and easily. Beautiful! Your class is going to be sooooo great! I'm giddy with excitement for you just thinking of it!

stirringleaf... I really like what April had to say on this. And remember my post to you the other day about the lunch? Same deal, sweetie.

Originally Posted by KateSt.

Melanie -- so great to hear about your house!!! And I love your new weekly exercise! I've been doing this too when decluttering -- I realize I'm making packing A LOT easier.

Yes, it does make it easier and more exciting, doesn't it?!

Tara -- you ARE a gift to the world!!

Amen to that!

Well, here's my latest success, after 7 attempts since JANUARY I FINALLY recorded my Pre-Birth Meditation CD!!!!!! YIPPPPPEEEEE!!!! And I can understand why I needed to wait because I received important information that had to be included that I didn't discover until recently. Right before I recorded it I decided to pull an Angel Card to see what they had to say and I pulled "Spread Your Wings!: Don't hold back now. You're ready to soar and the timing is perfect." !!!! And then after it was completed I asked the Universe for an obscure and specific sign letting me know that it was done correctly -- but then I realized I didn't need the sign because I could FEEL it was done perfectly -- and the very next day I received my obscure, specific sign anyway!!!! YIPPEEEEE!!!! So, I'm toasting myself because this is something I've soooo been compelled to complete and was having so many obstacles to overcome.

It has taught me not to put self-imposed deadlines on myself and to just flow with inspired action and Universal Flow. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

Yay, yay, yay!!! I'm so excited for you! And I love what you say about deadlines, because that's how it feels to me too! It's all about the flow.

Originally Posted by *Devon*

In other news, I have been playing "The Feather Game" nonstop since Melanie suggested it.

(that's where you easily manifest something insignificant because there's no resistance)

It is getting a little crazy how quickly these things show up!!

• a fire truck with sirens and lights on
• pink roses with darker pink edges (this one was hard because I kept focusing on it and creating resistance, but as soon as I forgot about it, it came)
• the word "Turtle"
• Gerber daisies
• A star, not in the sky
• The word "Italy"

Now I'm working on a baby chick. I try to pick things that will make me smile when I see them, might as well raise my vibration in the process...

Awesome, awesome, awesome!! Now how about a variation for you... Think of your favourite affirmation, or whatever affirmation is most helpful to you right now. Then every time you manifest a 'feather' repeat the affirmation to yourself. You are now riding on the super positive energy buzz of your manifestation, and giving that affirmation some extra good vibratory oomph!

Originally Posted by Petersmamma

Koala, that's a great challenge! But all the things I feel like I want right now won't really create a change in behavior. For example, I want to be finacially free (i.e. not owe money!), but it won't cause me to go shopping more or anything. Also, I am trying to "let slender in" and I came to the realization that for me, slender does not purchase things like candy and ice cream, but until they are out of the house, just go ahead and eat them and be happy! But, once I am at that slender place, nothing will change. I will still do yoga, I will still go running, etc. I guess one of the things I can do is to be conscious of my body. I have a tendency to ignore my body when I am heavier than I would like to be. I also want new flooring in my house, but again, my behavior won't change (except I will mop instead of vaccuum, but I don't think it's a goood idea to mop the carpet! ). Any suggestions for these types of changes?

What would you do differently when you get slender? Would you buy yourself some new clothes? Maybe get a new outfit in anticipation, or go window shopping and plan for new purchases. What does a slender person eat? So buy that the next time you get groceries. What does caring for your body look like to you? Pedicures? Long baths? Massage? Fancy creams for your legs? Do that now too!

Regarding your floors... Go buy a new mop, prepare a recipe for cleaning solution for your new hardwood, think about any furniture that you'd need to add non-slip/scratch pads to the bottom of, look for a new rug... Imagine what your house looks like with hardwood, and think of anything you'd be doing differently if it were alread there.

Hope that helps!

Originally Posted by Haydee

Do many of you spend time trying to manifest a better world of some kind? How do you do that? How would to incorporate that into your treasure map? : All these questions!

Welcome, Haydee!! For me, manifesting a better world starts with manifesting a better me. I also try to think about all the really good things happening in the world and put my energy on that, rather than the bad. If you have specific things you focus on, spend your time focusing on what it will look like in a state of perfection, not in a state of disarray. From a treasure map perspective... maybe photos of people helping each other, things that speak to community, abundance in nature, gorgeous natural scenes, etc. Those are the things that speak of earthly well being to me.

[InJoy]

My butterfly magic story!!

Had to share this with you all...
Yesterday as we were leaving the house a butterfly was perched right on the door. When I opened the door it still stayed right there. I lifted my 2 yr old up to get a better look. Well, then it flew away but just made a big circle to come back and land right on A's shoulder!!! So I put my finger in front of the butterfly and it crawled right on and just kind of sat staring at the two of us!! I have never had an encounter like this and it was so magical. Once my awe subsided my first thought was "I can't wait to tell the LoA mamas about this!"

I am so grateful for the inspiration you all give me.

Hooray for butterfly magic!!

(we need a butterfly smilie of some kind, huh?)

[indigenousmama]

this is my first multi-quote

Originally Posted by karlin

I've been in a rut lately, and it shows. I almost fell off the manifesting bandwagon.

This week I would like to manifest a buyer for our house.

Originally Posted by annalily

Just wanted to let ya'll know my aunt passed away yesterday. We will probably be spending the day at their house. She has two living children, a 13 yr old dd and 9 yr old ds, both adopted foster children. I am going to hug hug hug them, at least the girl, don't know if the boy will let me, lol.
Thank you all for all your thoughts and support on this.

sorry for your loss.

Originally Posted by Haydee

Hi!! Can I jump on the bandwagon here? Some of my manifestation came into being the past few days. My livingroom and hallway are clean! Now I need to work on manifesting the energy to get to the kitchen and my room before treasure mapping time.

Do many of you spend time trying to manifest a better world of some kind? How do you do that? How would to incorporate that into your treasure map? : All these questions!

hi Haydee. this is a good question. my first thought as to how to manifest a better world, would be to maintain my own alignment with my Inner Being. we can't control conditions or change other people, we can only change ourselves. i'll give this some more thought and maybe elaborate later.

Originally Posted by captain crunchy

I play the feather game too, but I don't call it that because I didn't know that is what it was called The one I do is sort of from *What The Bleep* where you create your intentions for how you want your day to go then you ask God (well, I do ) or whatever you are comfortable with, to show you a sign or token throughout the day that He's heard you and ask that it be something so unusual or mystical or whatever that you have no doubt that it was from Him -- So while I most of the time don't ask for something specific to see -- I always get that ~~~twilight zone~~~ moment where I have a little chuckle with the Almighty and say "you're too funny, thanks!"

i do that too! i usually do it as part of my morning ritual. i smudge with sage and set my intentions for the day and i keep in my mind that part from "what the bleep..." i really like that.

[*Devon*]

Originally Posted by mamaautumn

I am so grateful for the inspiration you all give me.

Hooray for butterfly magic!!

(we need a butterfly smilie of some kind, huh?)

What an inspiring story! I absolutely LOVE it!

Originally Posted by captain crunchy

the feeling in the dream from the energy I was getting from Celeste in her smile was a smile of real peace and contentment... I mean, the energy was happy, but what was overwhelming to me when we met eyes as I was holding her daughter, was the peace and just *settled*, everything is in it's place and where it should be type feeling -- can't explain it, it was powerful...

It was just cool ...

Thanks : I think that was amazing. (Celeste is not Asian but her husband is so her children would obviously be, plus I think she really identifies with Chinese culture and that's what dreams are all about, right? Symbolism?)

I love how we are all feeling the same thing!!

[gilleoin]

Originally Posted by darwinphish

My nonprofit got its CHECK for $100,000 in the mail today. How cool is that? This is really happening. I'm going to run a farm. :

OOH! Wonderful news!!

Originally Posted by Eli's_mommy

I am so glad it's almost treasure mapping time! I'm about to go to bed, but I thought I'd take a peak at what I had accomplished last week:

Child care is taken care of...Bf is home Wednesday and dMIL who I love and adore is watching ds until then !

I completely forgot about the couple hundred dollars...as a matter of fact I did get a couple hundred extra dollars this week. Exactly $200. Weird.

Love and Amazingly Spectacular Vibrations!

CHeck you out! Good manifestations.

Originally Posted by MyLittleWonders

And with that, I'm going to bed now. I am pooped and the kids don't know what sleeping in is. Someday, I remind myself, they will in fact be teenagers where "getting up early" will be unheard of. But for now, I best get some beauty rest.

Originally Posted by Momtwice

Good morning.

Amris, I read your post on the previous thread about feeling bad buying things for yourself, undies, jewelry. It's so much easier to love and give to everyone else, than to do something loving for ourselves when we've been conditioned to live in lack instead of abundance.

I understand this and have felt that way in the past.

Originally Posted by KoalaMama

Happy new week, everyone! And what a fantastic week it will be!
How did everyone do with the self-appreciation last week? I just loved writing out all the reasons I love myself every day! And I realized something great in the process... I really do think I'm awesome! I love me!

I didn't actually write stuff down, but would say things throughout the day.

Originally Posted by annalily

Just wanted to let ya'll know my aunt passed away yesterday. We will probably be spending the day at their house. She has two living children, a 13 yr old dd and 9 yr old ds, both adopted foster children. I am going to hug hug hug them, at least the girl, don't know if the boy will let me, lol.
Thank you all for all your thoughts and support on this.

s:

Originally Posted by AprilDaisy

I want to point something out here. Having a relationship with someone sort of "changes" the dynamics of LOA between them. You desire time with him... He desires space... HIS LOA is working for HIM... This, in turn, frees up your day.... It isn't about you manifesting loneliness...it's about learning to make use of your own time since your plans have now changed for today (or yesterday).... You are allowing your feelings to be based on HIS calling you....not on what you could do for yourself to make yourself happy today...

This makes sense when you think about it

Good Morning Ladies!!!! I just woke up, haven't even had two cups of coffee yet... So, I'll think on my intentions this week and post them this evening.... And especially take the time to think on Treasure map creation. This will be my first map!

Happy, Happy....Joy, Joy!!

I am participating for the first time this year

Originally Posted by KateSt.

Good Morning YOU BEAUTIFUL MAMAS!!!

Well, here's my latest success, after 7 attempts since JANUARY I FINALLY recorded my Pre-Birth Meditation CD!!!!!! YIPPPPPEEEEE!!!! And I can understand why I needed to wait because I received important information that had to be included that I didn't discover until recently. Right before I recorded it I decided to pull an Angel Card to see what they had to say and I pulled "Spread Your Wings!: Don't hold back now. You're ready to soar and the timing is perfect." !!!! And then after it was completed I asked the Universe for an obscure and specific sign letting me know that it was done correctly -- but then I realized I didn't need the sign because I could FEEL it was done perfectly -- and the very next day I received my obscure, specific sign anyway!!!! YIPPEEEEE!!!! So, I'm toasting myself because this is something I've soooo been compelled to complete and was having so many obstacles to overcome.

It has taught me not to put self-imposed deadlines on myself and to just flow with inspired action and Universal Flow. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

Anyway, had to share! Have a wonderful Sunday YOU GORGEOUS, MAGICAL MAMAS!!!!

Congrats!! And how may we order these, BTW? No pg yet, but would like to have for next time

My manifestations for this week-

Another smooth week at work, getting out quickly after close.

Treasure mapping to be fun and fruitful for us all.

Money, to take care of certain bills.

Continued weightloss and healthiness.

Good morning every wonderful mama in here and I'll be back later!!

[WuWei]

Welcome Maureen! Glad to see you here.

Pat

[Annikate]

Originally Posted by mamaautumn

Had to share this with you all...
Yesterday as we were leaving the house a butterfly was perched right on the door. When I opened the door it still stayed right there. I lifted my 2 yr old up to get a better look. Well, then it flew away but just made a big circle to come back and land right on A's shoulder!!! So I put my finger in front of the butterfly and it crawled right on and just kind of sat staring at the two of us!! I have never had an encounter like this and it was so magical. Once my awe subsided my first thought was "I can't wait to tell the LoA mamas about this!"

I am so grateful for the inspiration you all give me.

Hooray for butterfly magic!!

(we need a butterfly smilie of some kind, huh?)

cool! A butterfly smilie would be great!

[celesterra]

Hi to everyone and welcome to our new friends!

Originally Posted by captain crunchy

Speaking of which, I had a dream about celeste's baby last night too -- Kate's energy is spreading out everywhere

Wow, CC, Kate, Terri... you guys are just surrounding me with light and love.

CC, what strikes me most about your dream is that is exactly how I feel about becoming/ being a mother. So natural, so peaceful and right.

I am a white chick from (originally) MA, but my husband is Chinese, from China.

I'm headachy and crampy right now, so what a juxtaposition to have you all dreaming about me and my precious child. Just yesterday I was feeling so that I was considering releasing all of the things I have bought for my baby... I also thought about sperm donors, adoption and other paths to mamahood...
How confusing.

I'm just going to open my heart to all of these precious gifts and let it be.

All is well. I know what I am doing.

[Nature]

This week, I am continuing to manifest myself to the top of the waiting list for our new place.

I have put the application in, and everyone I asked to give references promised to give glowing ones. Now instead of simply waiting for the universe to provide the housing slot to open up for us, I am acting as if move in day is right around the corner.

I've donated large amount of clothing and furniture and cleared out a lot of clutter in my home to make moving easier. I'm packing up and boxing things we don't use daily so that we're all set to go. I've cut spending so that we have moving money when they call and tell me it time. I've been envisioning myself and my family in our new place, and literally enjoying our home in my mind. Playing with the kids in that backyard is so much fun! I can see it, I can feel it, and I can even smell it. Daydreaming about it is so much fun!

Dh and I have consciously changed our thinking and wording so that we never talk about "if" we get the place.. only "when" we get it. I've been looking at magazines, and stores and really enjoying my redecorating and gardening ideas. I confident the universe will provide this for us, and we're embracing and enjoying it already!

The past 2 weeks I manifested car repairs done for less money than what they were asking. I was able to find the parts we needed on Ebay (something I've never thought to do before and just hit me one night to try) and won a part. Paid for it and then just had a gut feeling to ask about its condition even though I'd seen a picture already. Turns out the item was broken some how, and I was able to find out, get a refund with no problems.. all before it shipped and wasted a week in transit. I was able to find and win another auction for the same item. It arrived in perfect condition.

All totaled repair savings? The garage estimated over 500.00 and the repairs are costing us a total of 210.00. : That is quite a bit of saved money!

[captain crunchy]

Well, in my dream you were Asian I guess be that part was symbolic ....maybe means everything works out with your husband??

...of course not that you would turn Chinese in your appearance if things worked out just maybe the combination of energies you and him together... who knows...

[ShannonCC]

Annalily I'm thinking of that pink, happy bubble surrounding you and your aunt's kids.

Darwinphish, did you get to hold the check? If it's up to you, try writing "thank you" in the memo before you deposit it

Wow, 3 pages :

Ok, off to celebrate my cycles! (with some more breakfast chocolate

[celesterra]

Originally Posted by captain crunchy

Well, in my dream you were Asian I guess be that part was symbolic ....maybe means everything works out with your husband??

...of course not that you would turn Chinese in your appearance if things worked out just maybe the combination of energies you and him together... who knows...

i don't think there's anything i can do about my wavy hair, wide hips and big nose! i stand out like a sore thumb, or a rose in a garden of peonies, in China!

anyway, i agree, it's not about the literal. and i'm always talking about China, my heart is there, and i just adore that you all are dreaming about me and my baby!

off to make some coffee.

Amris, Penny, Kate - CONGRATULATIONS - and all of you others posting this morning... I've read! Love your triumphs, and absolutely am grateful for everyone posting their journeys here. This is the best place online (and IRL, for me)!

[*Devon*]

Originally Posted by celesterra

I'm headachy and crampy right now, so what a juxtaposition to have you all dreaming about me and my precious child. Just yesterday I was feeling so that I was considering releasing all of the things I have bought for my baby... I also thought about sperm donors, adoption and other paths to mamahood...
How confusing.

I'm just going to open my heart to all of these precious gifts and let it be.

All is well. I know what I am doing.

I am just about done with your longies and I was like, I hope she still wants them! And then I was like, who cares, I made them for her, I'm giving them to her, and she can do whatever she wants with them. They are loaded with great energy!

[celesterra]

Devvz, what are we doing today? To meet or not to meet?

[Amris]

Originally Posted by karlin

I've been in a rut lately, and it shows. I almost fell off the manifesting bandwagon.

This week I would like to manifest a buyer for our house.

Karlin, nice to see you here.

Please, stick around, it's amazing how just a daily visit here to scan the thread quickly and post a hello can keep you RIGHT in the manifesting mindset!

So, instead of saying, "I would like to," say, "I am so happy and grateful the right buyer for our house has shown up and the smooth and easy process of transition has begun! Thank you, Spirit!"

Originally Posted by annalily

Hey everyone! Thanks for starting the new thread, Penny!

Just wanted to let ya'll know my aunt passed away yesterday. We will probably be spending the day at their house. She has two living children, a 13 yr old dd and 9 yr old ds, both adopted foster children. I am going to hug hug hug them, at least the girl, don't know if the boy will let me, lol.
Thank you all for all your thoughts and support on this.

On another note, I got a new cell phone! I had to sign a new contract, but my phone was actually broken and had been for several months, so what I wanted was for Verizon to decide that anyone can get a new free phone (with new 2 year contract of course), not just new customers. (Or maybe that was already their policy, but it was not clear from their website. Their "New in Two" program specifies only one free phone every 2 years, not for family share plans.) Anyway, we paid nothing and now have happy little working cell phones!

anna, please give those dear ones a huge hug from me, too. And give yourself one, as well. May yours and your family's hearts be loved gently and surrounded by Spirit in this time.

Originally Posted by captain crunchy

Morning mamas!

Amris way to go on the undies and earrings -- that seems like a big step for you (doing things for yourself and feeling good about it!) -- I think we all deserve that and it's great that you are taking little steps toward giving to yourself in things that bring you joy (that includes earrings and undies too!)


Devon -- I had a great time talking to you yesterday, my first phone call for life coaching! I hope I helped!

Melanie -- I have been doing the self appreciation exercise and boy, you should see my list of how wonderful I am random people reading it would think that I think I am God's gift to the world (well, we all know I am )

It was a HUGE change for me. Usually, I feel like I'm stealing from my family or from those I owe money to if I bought anything for myself.

stirringleaf, when I feel lonely is when I deliberately go out and do something I normally wouldn't. Go bowling, go to an arcade, go to a movie and get popcorn, etc.




By the way, folks, I wanted to share a success with you. I've taken up oil pulling, and it has really been a huge help for me.

I have a terrible tendency to put on a lot of plaque on my front bottom teeth, on the inside. I have to see a dentist every 6 months for a cleaning there, it builds up so quickly and badly. She's baffled as to why, but there you go.

Anyhow, at Easter, I was sitting there talking, and I felt something hard in my mouth, a tiny little bit of something. I got rid of it, and an hour or so later, I felt it again. This second time, it dawned on me what it was... the plaque was FALLING OFF of my teeth!

As of now, all my plaque is gone from those teeth. Plus, the gum has actually moved back up some (it's been getting progressively further back, pushed by the plaque).

Kira, also, seems to have benefitted. I am not positive if it's this or the hyland's teething tablets, but she seems to be spitting up a lot less. I am a lot less gassy, myself.

Just thought I'd share this for those of us who are having some health-related things. This really seems to be helping me a lot. I am using safflower oil with essence of orange oil added because I couldn't stand the oil by itself.

I took the packaging off the oil and wrote Love & Gratitude on it.

[*Devon*]

Random story I've been meaning to post for a while...

"How the LoA has been working in my life without me even realizing it"

Since my big breakup three years ago, I had been convinced the only thing I wanted in life was to get married, and the only way to do that was to get a boyfriend, obviously. I wanted it so bad... I attracted so much wanting, it was ridiculous. I thought all the time about how much I wanted someone to love me, adore me, worship me, want to get married, someone I could do stuff with, etc etc. but it never happened (gee, I wonder why? ) I'd meet plenty of guys, but it never turned into ANYTHING.

Then, last summer, I decided to try a different tactic and like someone who actually liked me back. It worked beautifully... our relationship was everything I could have ever asked for. We did all the things I like to do, plus plenty of new things. He has loads of friends, which was great since my best friend was away for the summer and a lot of my other friends are not local.

Because he was crazy about me and I was just "going with the Flow" (in a sense), the relationship was easy. I had no resistance at all, and I was never anything but my True Self. If I had said to him after three months, "Let's elope to Vegas and have a baby right away", he would have been like, Let's go!

But here's the problem -- the reason I had no resistance is because I didn't care what happened. I cared about him as a person, but I knew he was not my soul mate and we had no real future together.

Afterward, still pre-Secret, I would tell my friends that God finally got tired of my whining and in Her typical sarcastic parent fashion , said, "Here! You want a boyfriend? Have your stupid boyfriend that you want so bad. What? It's NOT what you want?? You mean, I actually know what I'm doing? I thought so. Now let me do my job, please," :

So basically, the moral of the story is that I attracted exactly what I THOUGHT I wanted, and also learned that things will Flow when there's no resistance.

However, how do you KNOW when you want the right things? Then, how do you remove resistance when you actually care what happens? This seems so far away for me.

[*Devon*]

Originally Posted by celesterra

Devvz, what are we doing today? To meet or not to meet?

I was going to call you as soon as I get off the phone with my mama... I can't decide!! I hate the idea of getting wet but I am excited to see you!

[AprilDaisy]

Originally Posted by mamaautumn

Had to share this with you all...
Yesterday as we were leaving the house a butterfly was perched right on the door. When I opened the door it still stayed right there. I lifted my 2 yr old up to get a better look. Well, then it flew away but just made a big circle to come back and land right on A's shoulder!!! So I put my finger in front of the butterfly and it crawled right on and just kind of sat staring at the two of us!! I have never had an encounter like this and it was so magical. Once my awe subsided my first thought was "I can't wait to tell the LoA mamas about this!"

I am so grateful for the inspiration you all give me.

Hooray for butterfly magic!!

(we need a butterfly smilie of some kind, huh?)

This is sooooooooooooo fantastic!!! Thank you for sharing!!!

[chrfath]

Busy already this week. I just started reading "You can Heal Your Life" I finished Excuse me your life is waiting last week. Whew. I am so glad to have found this community. Bursting at the seams glad. Overwhelmed with the shift in my life. I would love to read You can heal your life with someone sort of like a book club if anyone is interested.

DD had the most fantastic birthday yesterday. She kept walking into the living room saying "---prise" and signing it over all the decorations. She loved all the homemade gifts and simple toys. She is such a joy to have in our lives. I have been thinking about her and the fact that I manifested her in more ways than I realize. I would love to talk privately with one of you lovely ladies if anyone is up for it.

Oh, and the biggie for yesterday. DH and I had a bit of time in the morning to talk before the kiddos woke - He is reading "The Sermon on the Mount" by Emmet Fox. He read me page 31, I'll just share a snippet..."The great Law of the Universe, however, is just this - that what you think in your mind you will produce in your experience. As within, so without." Can you see the shocked look on my face. The original copyright is 1934. We are both reading such different things and coming across the same ideas. These same ideas that keep popping up everywhere for me right now.


I am excited to be starting a treasure map on Tuesday and will keep myself open to what the Universe shows me.

I am manifesting some nighttime weaning for DD and better sleeping for both kids.

I am sending love to all my family and seeing open lines of communication.

I am loving myself and healing.

I am manifesting a week of fun activities with the kids.

I am knowing and feeling the abundance in my life.

Have a great day everyone!

[Sepia]

[QUOTE=*Devon*;7854276][*] The word "Italy

Thank you Devon and Momtwice for posting this morning! You both gave me the push I needed to ask for help. Momtwice you posted about safety and joy for a relative traveling and I thought "okay I'm going to post about ds as soon as i'm done reading thr thread. but when i got to Devon's post about Italy I had to stop reading and post.

Y'all I am totally drowning in fear right now and I can't get out by myself. I need help! My 11 yr old ds left yesterday for a 2 week trip to Italy with my dad. Yes it is a wonderful opportunity. and the trip they have planned is amazing. they're doing a week of volunteer work at a school in south italy with a global volunteer organization. and then they're sightseeing for the 2nd week. and my dad is very safety conscious. and ds has been to camp before (5 days, in state) and did fine.

but this trip is really triggering the control freak part of me. which actually, (damnit!) i'm grateful for because i have been wanting to work on that. My mind is going wild with all these awful scenarios. I have a terrible tension headache and i can't sleep. can somebody talk me down?

thanks