mamaautumn, how awesome and beautiful! I found a caterpilar on me yesterday but let's just say that wasn't quite as magical...

How wonderful for your DD, too - it's so amazing as a kid to get up close to nature like that!
Sepia - seconding what others have said - EFT has really helped me when I have anxiety that I can't shake off. Also, are you getting enough sunshine? Even if it's cold, spending 15 minutes daily with skin exposed to sunlight (even indirect) can really boost your mood. Sometimes I get in a big funk and have no idea why - then I realize I haven't really been outside for a few days!

Yes, I'm very observant!
I haven't gotten to hold the check - yet. I think I'm going to ask our Exec. Dir. if I can go to the bank with him on Monday! We are thinking of ways to thank our generous donor - any ideas? We'd like to throw him a party we're so giddy with gratitude, but he's a private person who suffers social anxiety so that's out of the question. What is something really nice we could do (maybe farm-related?) without intruding too much into his life?
AprilDaisy - You gotta let go of the outcome! Both houses, or neither one, have to be acceptable to you - whatever the *Universe* leads you to. Once you've let go of not just the how, but the specific "what" in your head, then you'll start seeing signs again. Those signs WILL lead you to your dream home.
For instance - the $100,000K donation. Ive been going CRAZY writing grants these last few months. And feeling bad about it the whole time - stressed, frustrated, kinda hopeless truthfully. And then I remember the girl with the volleyball game hook-up - if it doesnt' FEEL right, it's not going to help. But of course I can't stop writing grant apps - that would be strange, and my project team would FREAK. So I keep doing what I'm doing, but I also start daydreaming... what if some wealthy person just GIVES us the money? What if it is totally effortless?


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Another thing I've had a lot of success with - thinking of myself as a dream-tracker. Like a native american animal tracker who can see animal prints in the dust, I'm a dream-tracker that can see the signs leading to my dreams clearly despite their subtlety.
When I think of LOA this way I start seeing signs everywhere! Ideas repeat themselves in multiple areas of my life - for intance, stumbling upon the raw food idea:
1. It showed up in a post here on MDC - random.
2. I'm browsing cookbooks and there's a rawfood un-cookbook in the middle of the meat section - coincidence.
3. I'm watching bad TV (Tyra repeat


and she's got a diet show on raw foods - SIGN!
When I start seeing things like that, in patterns, I know I'm 'tracking' something!
Can I just say how grateful I am to have a day where I could make the time to read 5 pages and actually reply to a few of you?

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