of Noah's birth with our family.
*warning* traumatic birth story---
He was born at home w just the MWs and DH. He had shoulder dystocia. And was VERY very stuck. Pat (MW) had me on my hands and knees after I birthed his head and she was yelling "PUSH! Get him out, do this for your baby! Oh dear God, you have to do this NOW!!!" My legs cramper with the worse charlie-horse ever from hips to ankles. It brings tears to my eyes remembering it, and I can't stop thinking about the panic I saw on DH's face and the tears rolling down his cheeks. Noah was finally pulled out of me by his arm and given mouth-to-mouth.
I sat there next to Pat in a daze, watching and praying. Helpless, we didn't have a name for him yet and Pat wanted me to hold him and say his name. I held him to my breast and he was just so limp and blue. No cries, eyes shut. They tried hot/cold washclothes. Finally-after 5 or more minutes he whimpered. Pat gave him O2 and then dried him off. DH sat with him and kept stimulating him and holding the O2 to his face. I watched and birthed the placenta.
There was no meconium. But the cord went up and over his shoulder and had been pinched during his stuck-time. We left him attached to the cord until he was breathing on his own. He didn't nurse or even open his eyes for about 6 hours, but he did cry!!!
So we aren't sharing this w our parents and some of our friends, which I suppose is OK. But, I do feel guilty-bc-no one can believe we had a HB! They are all so in awe of us. Not many people around here choose that. I just can't stop thinking about it. Have any of you had this type of trauma?
*added the following***
SOOO, last night Pat came for my 3 day check-up and shared some more news w us. Apparently, Noah was a twin. She showed me pictures of the placenta, which had 2 water bags and the placenta was HUGE. There was also a pretty good section( connected to water bag) that was necrotized. Of course, that all brought me to tears and disbelief. My DH kept saying it was for the best and twins would have been too hard, etc... I told him don't try to talk me out of mourning that little life. I am the mother and it is really sad.
*warning* traumatic birth story---
He was born at home w just the MWs and DH. He had shoulder dystocia. And was VERY very stuck. Pat (MW) had me on my hands and knees after I birthed his head and she was yelling "PUSH! Get him out, do this for your baby! Oh dear God, you have to do this NOW!!!" My legs cramper with the worse charlie-horse ever from hips to ankles. It brings tears to my eyes remembering it, and I can't stop thinking about the panic I saw on DH's face and the tears rolling down his cheeks. Noah was finally pulled out of me by his arm and given mouth-to-mouth.
I sat there next to Pat in a daze, watching and praying. Helpless, we didn't have a name for him yet and Pat wanted me to hold him and say his name. I held him to my breast and he was just so limp and blue. No cries, eyes shut. They tried hot/cold washclothes. Finally-after 5 or more minutes he whimpered. Pat gave him O2 and then dried him off. DH sat with him and kept stimulating him and holding the O2 to his face. I watched and birthed the placenta.
There was no meconium. But the cord went up and over his shoulder and had been pinched during his stuck-time. We left him attached to the cord until he was breathing on his own. He didn't nurse or even open his eyes for about 6 hours, but he did cry!!!
So we aren't sharing this w our parents and some of our friends, which I suppose is OK. But, I do feel guilty-bc-no one can believe we had a HB! They are all so in awe of us. Not many people around here choose that. I just can't stop thinking about it. Have any of you had this type of trauma?
*added the following***
SOOO, last night Pat came for my 3 day check-up and shared some more news w us. Apparently, Noah was a twin. She showed me pictures of the placenta, which had 2 water bags and the placenta was HUGE. There was also a pretty good section( connected to water bag) that was necrotized. Of course, that all brought me to tears and disbelief. My DH kept saying it was for the best and twins would have been too hard, etc... I told him don't try to talk me out of mourning that little life. I am the mother and it is really sad.
! You are a strong mama!
he cant get over that no one told him and that he should of asked i tell him who walks around asking their parents if they were a twin i agree to hold it back but i would write a letter for him when he gets older and talk to him about it then about the birth it is your choice if you share or not i didnt tell my family about the birth of my 2 i am sorry for your loss i to would morn the loss but it is done even then there is nothing that you could do to prevent it 
i hope your ds is healthy
