soooo.....if you hear on the news about a woman in KY who plunged off of a very high bridge today......it was me.
This morning started off difficult. Very hard, situation looking pretty bleak, darned near impossible.
Then I checked on our bank account online again a little while ago.
Seems that the deposit we made last night was 12 mins after the cut off (which was due to getting stuck behind a traffic accident on the way to the bank) which in effect has now put the account into the hole to the tune of almost $400.00 due to many overdraft charges of 35.00 each.
I called the bank, explained, pleaded, begged, and yes, even cried.....all it got me was a "sorry ma'am, the deposit was after our cut off, nothing we can do."
So, this morning, while things looked bad, things like groceries, the electric bill and the rent might have been okay with some quick action like the big yard sale this weekend, pawning of wedding rings, ect....
Now things ARE impossible. We might have been able to overcome things before the bank account bouncing issues, but now that sets us back about $400.00 more.
Dh and I had a huge fight, actually three of them on the phone in the last hour.
I have to get a fulltime job. Finishing nursing school will have to wait for some other time in my life I guess.
I have been battling a strep infection (my kids had strep) but I cant get to the doc to get an antibiotic, my antidepressant has run out, I feel like crap on top of feeling like crap.
Situation is hopeless, totally hopeless.
I quit. I cant do this anymore.
I only hope there is enough gas in my car to drive to the very high bridge....
Welcome to another day in the life of America's working poor trying to hold it together one more day, hoping and praying for a miracle.
I dont recommend the lifestyle to anyone.
BTW, just kidding about the bridge.....sort of... I guess.....maybe I'll just go take a nap, I'm afraid of heights anyhow.