I am pretty new to these boards and do more lurking then anything else...but had to chime in on this one!! I will be 36 weeks on Wed. and go between being totally panicked about what still needs to be done----and being totally ready to be done because I am so tired of waddling!!! I had a scare at 31 wks, 5 days when I was found to already be 80% effaced, with an anterior cervix and babies head felt---and swore I was ready to be pregnant as long as needed so that baby and I were healthy and I could have my home water birth…ok—well once I pass the 36 week mark officially and am in the home birth safe zone...I am ready to be done!! I swore I would never say that---I always tell my doula clients to enjoy these last few weeks, make the most of them, don’t get in hurry, blah, blah, blah…and here I am swallowing my whole foot because I “get it” now! ( shh don’t tell any one this…this is the only place that I can be totally honest and not worry about what everyone will think!!)
My due date is May 23rd—but we are doubting I will go that far since I was already heading that way at 31 /32 weeks. I don’t want to complain—because I know all this comes with the territory…but holy cow this is hard!!! It hurts to walk, to drive, to sleep, to lay in the couch, to do laundry, etc……. I am still working full time and really need to until I go into labor so not to use any of my vacation time for any thing but maternity leave…but coming to work just plain sucks when my mind is a million miles away and I can think of a million other things I could be doing!
Ok…breathe, I know…..I think I am ok now that I ranted a bit!! Thanks for bearing with me. This morning as I was driving to work in traffic—I so wished I had a sign I could post in the window that said “ Beware---9 months hormonal pregnant woman coming through. Get near at your own risk!!”