no, no news yet. *sigh* i am getting soooo impatient! and the funny thing is. i just recalculated the "due date" and i am due even earlier than i thought. like around the 12th, not the 20th! it was some site where not only do you enter your LMP but the luteal phase and something else. i forget what doctors use to calculate? which would be more correct? i assume the one i just did since it had 3 questions instead of just one.....
lol even my dp is getting super antsy, always asking me if i am "having contractions yet."
my boobs are leaking like crazy! i swear! drip, drip, drip.
and i don't feel like putting on a bra and nursing pad. i haven't got cloth ones yet and those ucky disposables itch like CRAZY!
: i keep telling my boobs, "hey, calm down, you haven't got a baby to feed YET!" lol
i was talking to story earlier this evening too. i was all, "hey baby story, i'm ready for you to come! i've got you pretty cloth diapers, and mommy milk, and clothes, and lots of cuddles." "love lol just letting her know that any time she's ready to come i am!
i'm kinda feeling sucky though too. apparently yesterday was national Bug Jessica About Her Unassisted Homebirth Day. UGH. my grandma was SO FREAKING rude and condescending. its funny how ppl essentially say you are stupid for UC yet go on about how bad their hospital birth was!
: do they hear themselves? her level of ignorance was phenomenal. and she actually said that she hopes my dp calls the ambulance on me when i go into labor! and that if i don't go to the hospital, he should just leave me while i birth! agghhh!!!!! and my dad called too...... as if i care that they "want me to go to a hospital." it is MY BIRTH! and he tried to convince me by saying my mom had complications with all of us kids.
me: what complications?
him: "uh.. you came out so fast that she ripped."
me: (thinking ummm ok, major complication!
) "anything else?"
him: "your mom has some cousins that were breech!"
i think that 4 kids, one rip is not that bad!! haha. but why must my family be so rude and negative? and those are mild words for my grandmother.....
so guys!!! i need some encouraging words and vibes!
: 9 months and the negativity is starting to get to me! and i'm getting nervous... soo scared that i will have to go to the hospital, scared that the baby will come out dead or won't start breathing.
well, i have cooed and ranted enough now, i guess i will go!