I found your story through your signature.
I am so sorry all of that happened to you, your girl, and even your DH.
My situation doesn't even touch your horrors, in a story that ultimately had two perfectly healthy mothers and babies, but it could have gone there. And I haven't even been able to write them letters. Let alone think of a lawsuit. I am in awe of you.
"Most people think I should just forget about about it and be greatful that my DD and I are alive...they don't understand that neither of us were ever in any danger (until the hospital staff got hold of us anyway)."
My old friends all think the same. They wouldn't let me talk about anything early on. Now if I were to talk to them they would say "you're STILL talking about it? you should medicate yourself." They simply don't understand that I was never in danger, nor was my son.
My son's records have lies all over them. In one paragraph they state that he was crying. Then they state they had to help him start to breathe. Well, which is it? And no matter what they didn't have to start anything, as the boy woke me up with screaming as soon as he was taken out (I was given fentanyl, enough to knock out a horse when i can't even take an ibuprofen without getting loopy, and the epidural went up too high, and I was so tired I fell asleep before anything surgical started). He didn't have lung problems in any way.
The records also refer to him as a girl at one point, and mention a circumcision. Um....
There's much more but this isn't my thread, I just wanted to make sure you knew you weren't alone.
I simply must write my letters. The LMs I hired paid me back a bunch of the pre-paid money, and sent some letters of apology. But they didn't apologize for their biggest thing. They finally talked me into breaking my waters, I said yes, then as it was about to happen I started saying "no". Over and over, rescinding my OK. But they used the amniohook anyway. Earlier, they had interrogated me as to whether I had been sexually abused, b/c they felt I was holding back labor, and I am a modest person who didn't want them to see my, well, butt. They insisted it was b/c I must have lied when I said I hadn't been sexually abused. And then came the amniohook. As my Bradley teacher said later, "well, you have been sexually assaulted now".
I have to write those letters to the LMs, hospital, and OB. They have to know what they did to me. Thank you for posting your story, as hard as I *know* it was for you.
I am so sorry all of that happened to you, your girl, and even your DH.
My situation doesn't even touch your horrors, in a story that ultimately had two perfectly healthy mothers and babies, but it could have gone there. And I haven't even been able to write them letters. Let alone think of a lawsuit. I am in awe of you.
"Most people think I should just forget about about it and be greatful that my DD and I are alive...they don't understand that neither of us were ever in any danger (until the hospital staff got hold of us anyway)."
My old friends all think the same. They wouldn't let me talk about anything early on. Now if I were to talk to them they would say "you're STILL talking about it? you should medicate yourself." They simply don't understand that I was never in danger, nor was my son.
My son's records have lies all over them. In one paragraph they state that he was crying. Then they state they had to help him start to breathe. Well, which is it? And no matter what they didn't have to start anything, as the boy woke me up with screaming as soon as he was taken out (I was given fentanyl, enough to knock out a horse when i can't even take an ibuprofen without getting loopy, and the epidural went up too high, and I was so tired I fell asleep before anything surgical started). He didn't have lung problems in any way.
The records also refer to him as a girl at one point, and mention a circumcision. Um....
There's much more but this isn't my thread, I just wanted to make sure you knew you weren't alone.
I simply must write my letters. The LMs I hired paid me back a bunch of the pre-paid money, and sent some letters of apology. But they didn't apologize for their biggest thing. They finally talked me into breaking my waters, I said yes, then as it was about to happen I started saying "no". Over and over, rescinding my OK. But they used the amniohook anyway. Earlier, they had interrogated me as to whether I had been sexually abused, b/c they felt I was holding back labor, and I am a modest person who didn't want them to see my, well, butt. They insisted it was b/c I must have lied when I said I hadn't been sexually abused. And then came the amniohook. As my Bradley teacher said later, "well, you have been sexually assaulted now".
I have to write those letters to the LMs, hospital, and OB. They have to know what they did to me. Thank you for posting your story, as hard as I *know* it was for you.
I cannot even begin to imagine I am so very sorry. I cried reading this, how unfair and sick. Much love to you
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that someday, you should maby try to find Forgiveness for them.
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