Incredibly frustrated and anxious
I started off the night with 2-3 ctx an hour. I just stayed in bed and dealt with them there. But by 11, it just was too much, so I came downstairs.I set up one of those armed reading pillows in DH's gigantic recliner, then put a pillow up above it to rest my head on. Seemed to work out good. I could sleep in between, but wasn't so far buried in the chair that I was uncomfortable. The ctx got to be 8 minutes apart most of the night, and very hard since about 2:30 - 3am. Despite that, I feel pretty rested considering. Must be the endorphins or something - I did sleep between them all, no problem!
Still going strong so far this morning, and I'm (finally) seeing some plug, I think. It may be from the exams yesterday morning, but I'm sure all these ctx have to be doing something good down there.
I have no idea when I'll go in to the hospital again. The head OB nurse (who I love) called me last night to see how I was doing. In the course of the conversation, I find out that if I had stayed yesterday, they "wouldn't have been able to do a vbac" because of the OR. Huh?? The stupid clauses that the ACOG came up with say that during a vbac, an OR and full crew has to be available "just in case". Well, apparently yesterday they had two ORs going, but only one anesthesiologist, and according to the guidelines, they had to keep him available just for me - so all the surgeries were being held up while I was there. So stupid. The chance of uterine rupture in a vbac is less than 1%, which is way lower than a ton of other things that go wrong in ANY labor/delivery - and they don't have to have a crew standing by waiting any time a woman is in labor. I don't get it... stupid.
So now, I'm also afraid that if I go in they'll be rushing things along just so they can keep their OR going. It's so frustrating to be treated liking a ticking time bomb for doing something that's completely freaking normal. I wish I was brave enough to just do a homebirth - it would be so much less hassle. Anyway, I'm trying to not think about all that stuff. Even the OB nurse told me not to worry - they'd "find a way".
So, now the ctx seem to be 5 min apart again but I'm going to wait until the staff changes over so I can talk to that nurse again. Hopefully this kid will come today via the way nature intended. Sorry for the vent...







I am sorry you are having such a difficult time. It is ridiculous how Dr's and such treat birth as if it is not a normal process our bodies are built for. I really hope you have a successful VBAC!!!


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