still here

at this point im shooting for a baby on the 20th. my birthday and ds2's is on the 13th of our birth month, ds1 and ds3 are on 22 of their months and dh is the 20th, so ive come this far ill wait until sunday
my cervix has just about dissapeared. I hope its from effacement and not just cuz its moved out of reach
im coming out of my skin scared about birth this time. I think it may be the baby's position that has me worked up. it feels eerily similar to what ds1 felt like and he came out face first, sunny side up with his hand beside his cheek. Im working on some movemennts to fix it so we will see. its only been about 24 hrs since i figured it out and it already feels better.
has anyone here ever used motherwort or st john's wort for anxiety? it says it may cause uterine contractions but im not too worried about that

i just need to get my head around this and the rescue remedy doesnt do enough.
on a plus note we finally have names picked lol
subject to change if baby doesnt fit the names
girl - lillyanne clotilde
boy - nathaniel david