I have not really been reading or posting too much because I have had a very rough 6 days. I found out that it isn't prudent for me to VBAC (I was planning a waterbirth at a fsbc). Don't ask why... I am not ready to talk about it yet. I spent a lot of time 
Then I got very painful UTI to top it off.
Anyhow, I met my midwife's backup OB today... I am traveling more than 1.5 hours over state lines to have a C/S in a hospital highly supportive of normal birth, so hopefully I won't have to fight many protocols to have as peaceful a C/S as possible. Turns out this OB had tried for an HBAC and had to have a C/S instead for almost the same reason that I will... so she was very empathetic regarding my lousy emotional state.
But a C/S is still a surgery no matter what, and traumatizing. So please send me some good vibes for Friday morning if you remember.

Then I got very painful UTI to top it off.

Anyhow, I met my midwife's backup OB today... I am traveling more than 1.5 hours over state lines to have a C/S in a hospital highly supportive of normal birth, so hopefully I won't have to fight many protocols to have as peaceful a C/S as possible. Turns out this OB had tried for an HBAC and had to have a C/S instead for almost the same reason that I will... so she was very empathetic regarding my lousy emotional state.
But a C/S is still a surgery no matter what, and traumatizing. So please send me some good vibes for Friday morning if you remember.












Sending lots of hugs and healing thoughts your way, mama!




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