yes it was hard. We first delt with inverted and flat nipples I needed the shields to help her latche I also needed to prop something under each breast to help her latch on. NIP was very ackward
She did learn and around 2 months we were able to drop using them. Then I started having severe supply issues and AF problems, AF returned WAYYYY TOOO early actually right away despite full time nursing by the 2 month she was totally regecting nursing during AF and the days leading up.
SHe was also sleeping huge streaches that if I could go back in time I would have woken her MUCH more to nurse but I didn't know
. I pumped to keep up supply but soon that didn't work. By 3.5 months she'd latch on suck for a moment or so and latch of screaming. The pumped BM reserve was soon used up. SHe just cried and screamed.
I tried to get help but didn't know where to ask try, I was jsut told it was a "nuring strike" or a 'growth spurt" then one day we noticed she no longer had tears we hadn't changed a wet diaper in days and her soft spot was sunken in and she was VERY content she just slept
. We took her into th hospital. FTT
and for about 3 days delt with NICU and the powers to be at CPS asking up twenty million questions.
When we left we were given some special high calorie formula and a rental breast pump (like $1,000+ cost if you buy it).
I was beyond depressed I felt stupid and worthless as a parent. It was hard enough the day I gave my DD a bottle of expressed milk but thought well at least its breastmilk I could even accept the formula when she was in the hospital but now. Now this was proof I was a useless parent. I refused the formula I tried again but still nothing. She then started crying again I put her in crib because I was scared I'd hurt her and locked my self in our bathroom.
I cried and cried and cried untill a "voice" plain as day said. Your daughters hungry feed her it will be okay. I to this day SWEAR someone was in the room with me but I was alone. I went into the kitchen and mixed her first at home bottle of formula. Got her cradled her as close to me as possible and fed her. She drank and drank and I could feel her body relax. I rejoiced that she was finially feeling full and burst into tears again because I wasn't providing it.
I did more research after that I called and asked and finially got ahold of a LC through our local WIC that gave me the time of day. I learned about slings and SNS (which I'd used briefly when dealing with the inverted nipples) So fro the next 3 months I literly slung my DD all day and kept her skin to skin next to my breast and she coslept with me. SHe was allowed to nurse and encouraged all day a suck or two here and there whatever. I still gave formula.. Then slowly she was taking less and less of the FB and more and more breastmilk.
Then one day I'm sitting with her watching TV she latches on and drinks and drinks and drinks her head falls back eyes rolled back and her mouth is so full of milk its spilling out the sides of her mouth!
We did countinue to occassionally use formula but our breastfeeding relationship returned 10 fold. I never did pump it got to where she nursed just fine but I never could pump. SO she did take the occasional sumplemental bottle and I to this day remain thankful that I did have a way to feed her when she couldn't BF. At 13 months we officially put the bottle away. She countinued to nurse though and did so untill her 4th birthday. We never set a weaning date she started to naturally wean around age 3 but she nursed for the last time on her 4th birthday.