well, what has been a great pregnancy has turned scary for me. but for no GOOD REASON, darn it.
i am 41 weeks as of this coming mon/tues. at my OB appt yesterday i was neither diated or effaced. no mucus plug, no nothing.
my doc got very serious and made a "plan" for me. my doc who i put so much trust in. i feel she is going against me now. she made me an inducement date when i will only be about 41.5 weeks pregnant. why? because they cant induce over MEMORIAL DAY. WTF!?!?! ANGER!!
the worst part is she mentioned the word that i never thought i would hear "cytotec." i have been warned and scared never to let anyone give me this stuff. then she said after the cytotec will come "pitocin." WHY?? how can i trust someone who is recommending CYTOTEC? that is scary stuff am i right?!?!
my question is WHY DO WE HAVE TO INDUCE. me and the babe are 100% normal and healthy. the ONLY reason she gave is that risk of stillbirth goes up past 42 weeks.
i wanted to avoid any drugs or medicalizations -->unless in an emergency.<--- and this seems like we are going WAY in the wrong direction here. i feel like a failure. terrified. wondering if my fears of birth are not allowing my body to progress. i have been trying SO HARD to trust the baby, my body and the natural process and now this.
pitocin will lead to an epi. epi will lead to a c-sec. what the F(*&^% is going on here!?!!?
last night i had my first dream of labor EVER (weird i know). it involved induction in a weird 1950's era hospital room. the nurse was very nice though, and she put a gel on my cervix and promised "this works every tiime."
i am not religious but i am praying this dream was sent by my unconsious to my body, to tell it to GET STARTED.
i am really upset. thank you for listening.
deb
i am 41 weeks as of this coming mon/tues. at my OB appt yesterday i was neither diated or effaced. no mucus plug, no nothing.
my doc got very serious and made a "plan" for me. my doc who i put so much trust in. i feel she is going against me now. she made me an inducement date when i will only be about 41.5 weeks pregnant. why? because they cant induce over MEMORIAL DAY. WTF!?!?! ANGER!!
the worst part is she mentioned the word that i never thought i would hear "cytotec." i have been warned and scared never to let anyone give me this stuff. then she said after the cytotec will come "pitocin." WHY?? how can i trust someone who is recommending CYTOTEC? that is scary stuff am i right?!?!
my question is WHY DO WE HAVE TO INDUCE. me and the babe are 100% normal and healthy. the ONLY reason she gave is that risk of stillbirth goes up past 42 weeks.
i wanted to avoid any drugs or medicalizations -->unless in an emergency.<--- and this seems like we are going WAY in the wrong direction here. i feel like a failure. terrified. wondering if my fears of birth are not allowing my body to progress. i have been trying SO HARD to trust the baby, my body and the natural process and now this.
pitocin will lead to an epi. epi will lead to a c-sec. what the F(*&^% is going on here!?!!?
last night i had my first dream of labor EVER (weird i know). it involved induction in a weird 1950's era hospital room. the nurse was very nice though, and she put a gel on my cervix and promised "this works every tiime."
i am not religious but i am praying this dream was sent by my unconsious to my body, to tell it to GET STARTED.
i am really upset. thank you for listening.
deb







They don't want to be delivering a baby over a weekend, they want to be out playing instead.
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I'm in a similar situation (with the added threat of 'losing' my homebirth which I desperately don't want to do).