I've been following your story since you posted, and first, I just want to say *hugs*
to you - what you're doing is hard enough without jerk doctors and people generally just misunderstanding how the whole thing works. I really hope you're going into labor on your own - it sounds like it's beginning - and I have the highest hopes for you to have a healthy, natural birth.
That said - if that is indeed what you want - don't be scared. Your body knows what to do. It really does!! I wanted to tell you that when I was induced with DS, they told me "we'll just try a little of this and hopefully that will work", stuff like that: "this should put you over the edge" ... well, when I showed up at the hospital after PROM 24+hours, all that Cervidil talk went right out the window. It was straight to the Pit for me. And when I asked them if they would please just start small with the Pit dose and see if that kicked off labor, they said they would, and then totally ignored my wishes and came in to crank up the dose every 30 minutes just like they would have anyway.
I could go on and on, babe. I'm not going to. I didn't have a c-section, thankfully, but without DP there I'm not sure I could say that. Regardless, I just want you to know that they don't always do what they say they're going to do, and as long as you think you're ok and you think the baby's ok; as long as your BPPs are looking good, hold out. Don't go to the hospital until you're in full-blown, 3-4mins apart labor. They want to intervene, and going to the hospital before labor has started is a surefire way to get all the interventions in the world thrown at you. Stay CALM, RELAX - at home
- and I have to echo what 100 other posters have said: You are not beholden to their demands. The doctors work for YOU, not the other way around. They cannot refuse to help you have your baby, and they cannot order you to do it their way.
and best of luck to you. I hope to be reading good news here very soon!!