hi all

mind if i join in? i think i may have some adrenal insufficiency. a little background story:
i first noticed that i was feeling "not my usual" self following major surgery in 2000. i was 95lbs as it was and was put on a puree foods diet for two months following. 2 weeks after my surgery i also foolishly embarked on a full time university degree. i started to have chronic headaches, no doubt from the lack of nourishing food and heavy load. it was so bad my lecturers made plenty of exeptions for me when it came to assignments and exams and i asked to take the following semester off. it didn't do much, i was still extremely tired and run down. fast forward to the following year - PMS happens for the first time, migraines more frequent, am anemic etc and it continues with many brush offs from the medical profession as to that's how things are. fast forward to the next year, dh and i get married. stress reached a very high level, tried to kill myself at one point and i cant remember over what now (probably over how i wasn't ever able to do much without feeling like i was going to collapse). dh takes me to the hospital. fast forward to the following year, i have a very traumatic miscarriage that totally tore me down.. 2 months later i end up having the epstein-barr virus and it went undetected for two weeks as a throat infection in which i was given copius amounts of antibiotics. ended up in hospital on a drip because i hadn't been able to drink anything in 24 hours. 3 weeks later, i find out i am pregnant with dd1. her pregnancy was very, very difficult and stressful. i was losing amnio fluid and was on strict bed rest for over half of the pregnancy. give birth, severe PPD sets in. at 6 months PP i was suicidal again. dd NEVER slept in the day and only slept 20 mins tops (sometimes she'd wake up once every 40 minutes) every single night. i was becoming physcotic, hallucinating non a few occassions from the sheer exhaustion. never recieved treatment or help in any shape or form. my dh couldn't understand what the heck was going on, he just went to work, came home, put dd to sleep, made something to eat and went to bed. i spent most everyday crying and staring at the wall. 2y3m later, dd2 comes along (i had still been breastfeeding dd#1 up to this point). mild PPD sets in. 2 months later my dad dies unexpectedly. anxiety starts to get worse, PPD from dd#1 still not resolved. i noticed if i would drink coffee just once or eat something sugary, within a few hours i'd have a very sore throat and my body would be even more run down. breastfeeding was particularly hard on me and my dd#1 used to nurse all day long. i was constantly dizzy, light headed, run down..
2y4m later dd#3 comes along. started to develop ectopic beats, lot of chest pain, wierd headaches.. dd#3 doesn't like to sleep either (she is up every 60 mins) and nurses all day too.

started to have constant panic attacks in may when we had to find a place to move to and i developed a diff kind of headache they thought may have been an aneurysm.. my anxiety was.. i cant even explain.
anxiety is at an all time high. most days i cant function as i should. we wake up late, i still feel the need to sleep in the day for 3-4 hours but can't. i only have energy following a long nap for the first hour or so, then i start to almost drop off again soon after. i'm constantly dizzy and light headed, i am constantly anxious.. and i spend about 13 hours awake and even with a nap, i'm only energetic for maybe 1-2 hours in total. i can barely do anything around the house.
had some blood tests done recently, thyroid was normal but cholesterol and vit d were very low (total chol only 105).
i can't have any sugar without feeling a lot worse.. it seems like i need protein and fat all day only. even fruit sugar is not working out anymore. oh and i need to eat all the time, like once every hour otherwise the dizzyness gets worse.
i don't know where to begin on my search. i've been told its all in my head or its all due to the anxiety. anyone have any ideas? similar experiences? and if you've read this all, thank you so much.

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