I'm so sad, I'm dying inside. We just found out that my mom has metastatic bone cancer. The tumor on her leg bone is so huge the doctors advised her to remain in bed so it doesn't fracture. So far, they have found cancerous lesions on her spine and in her leg. We don't even know where the cancer started from yet. We're taking her on Thursday to get a scan of her organs to see where else it might have spread to. We don't have her prognosis yet but we already know it isn't good. My family is SO close, I can't imagine losing my mom. I have never been this sad in my entire life. I don't feel like I can survive this grief. I'm trying to be strong for her but it is so hard. I don't know how I can be a good Mama without my mom to help guide me. I want my daughter to have the close relationship that I had with my Grandma (who now has Alzheimers). My DD is so young, I don't think she'll even remember my mom and that just kills me. We planned to have another baby next year and I can't imagine my mom not knowing this child. I would give anything to save my mom. I don't even know what else to say, I just felt like I needed to share my grief. Please pray for us.
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6/4/07 at 2:00am