Please tell me I'm not the only one...

[nausicaamom]

Firstly I am thrilled that we managed to get pregnant so quickly this time around especially since I had this thought in my head that it wasn't going to happen. That said, I forgot how miserable I was during my first trimester with my son and it feels worse this time around. There is so much going on and the crazies I get from all of those hormones pumping into me are driving me up a wall. Part of it I know is all the nerves I have from going from one kid to two and a whole bunch of life happening that I really can't control. I'm just counting down the days until I can get past the worst of the hormones and start bonding with the bean rather than just worrying about one more thing on my already overcrowded plate.

Anyone else?

[phillybama]

You are not alone! Although, this is my first pregnancy, I can't stop obsessing about it. I tested positive at 10DPO (i know, too early!) and I have peed on a stick every day since then, scared that it won't stick.

Right now I am 13DPO and am still feeling a little nausea. I am bloated beyond belief and can hardly button my pants.

I have my first OB appointment on July 3rd (I will be almost 8wks then), and I really have to get myself a hobby, so the time will go by faster.
Things are busy at work, but I am having difficulty concentrating. I have a big conference to attend at the end of this month. I am hoping that the nausea won't be too bad. There's nothing like running out of a meeting to go puke!

[flapjack]

It's funny, I just searched MDC for you because you don't seem to have been posting much recently.
I would LOVE for this to be over. I would love to be at the point where I can feel those butterfly flutters and go "hee, that's our baby moving, it's going to be OK." I would love to believe that the sickness is not psychosomatic or the result of an OD on junk food, that the garlic aversion is not imaginary, that my new enlarged stomach is not the result of a pizza binge.
And yes, I would love to be not shouting at my boys twenty-four hours a day. They seem to have spent most of the last month on a red card (= mummy has lost her temper and is about to shout and say bad things, please be good immediately) plus the tearfulness, the emotional rollercoaster.
Roll on the second trimester!

[nausicaamom]

Thanks PhillyBama and Helen. I've been in hiding - nasty head cold, trying to get some stuff for swaps together and mailed out (terribly late), my son is starting school next week and having a birthday party this coming weekend, my FIL is dying, and for some unknown reason my mother (after the whole conversation about how I won't start working on stuff for the bean until I hit the second trimester for fear of jinxing) has decided to tell my entire extended family I am pregnant. All of this with snapping at the husband and crying several times a day for no apparent reason.

AAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!! : : :

I really just needed to get that out.

I feel better now.

[flapjack]

Swaps are bad and evil (or rather, Royal Mail is.) I posted four packages on the same day and not ONE of them arrived on the NA subcontinent, so I'm having to redo everything. I am absolutely gutted.

[Carlito's_wife]

My youngest is 5 so I really didn't remember how hard all this would be. I have been a mess and said a number of mean and cruel things to my husband that would have made me leave had it been him saying it to me.

It's a lot of pressure when you get down to it. It's so easy to forget the hardest parts of pregnancy when end payoff is a little angel in your arms. I honestly forgot how hard the first trimester was.

I can't really say I am handling it great because my husband is the one holding it all together. Ready to instantly forgive me for all me tantrums and mood swings.

I hope things become a little less stressful for you. Although it's easier said than done, just try to relax. I know it kind of sounds corny but yoga or some kind of spiritual relaxation technique may help you out. Help you wind down and clear you thoughts.

[mamamilkers]

Hi Jenn! I was lurking on this board tonight and saw your post. Congrats on the pregnancy, mama!!!!!!!!!! I'm so thrilled for you and your beautiful family!

Oh, and yeah, it's just downhill from here

[ksera05]

You are not alone. At all. I got my positive test at 9dpo. I'm having symptoms out the wazoo. And yet I still feel panicky. Interspersed with moments where I wonder if I can really do this.

My first visit is July 2nd, phillybama! I think I'm going to be about 6.5 weeks then. I'm high risk so I have to go in early.

[nolonger]

You are not alone. As much as I planned this pregnancy and as long as I had to wait for a sticky bean and as thrilled as I am, I still have panic moments where I worry about being able to support us financially and am terrified of CPS or homelessness. I worry that the baby will grow up to think that what I did (conceiving as a single mother by choice) was selfish and irresponsible. I worry that our breastfeeding relationship will be compromised by my having to go back to work very early. I worry that I won't be able to give her as much as I gave the older children when I really want to give her so much more of the things I couldn't give them because of exy. I already love her so much.

[flapjack]

NOS, do you know what my biggest memory of single parenthood was? The feeling of total liberation knowing that my family stood or fell by my decisions, and that my judgement was the right one. No negotiating, no game-playing, no compromising on the big stuff, what mattered to me mattered to my family. Plus, when you consider just how high the divorce rate is nowadays just under half of the children born to married couples in feb08 will have divorced parents by the time they start school... there are worse ways of messing your kids up. You're being true to yourself, and that's a pretty big lesson for a little one (especially a girl) to learn.